OMG.. I'm feeling so down right now... just got a shock for myself, disappointed as well.. suddenly it hit me that i totally lost the passion for people... being interested is not what i'm doing, instead is can't be bothered..

Xue was asking me about this friend and i vaguely remembered i want to help her for this one month to see if there are improvements before moving on from there. Just so happen that she lost my no and she asked for mine thru xue but i told her I didn't want and it came to my realisation I'm not fulfilling what I'd mentioned just 3 days ago!!


Probably I'm just like this man above when I'm not motivated to move and simply feeling too lousy to start moving.. But I shouldn;t be reacting this way right? It's not about doing what's right, but it just ain't me right?
Not the Junius nor the Solomon I myself knows. Yup indeed I'm feeling real lousy and probably its an attack from the devil to keep me down..

May be it's a test to see how strong I am or fast to recover from the sadness to be functional at the same time..


I wonder when at times like this, can there be anyone outside that I can depend on for comfort, for strength and encouragement...

Will I ever going to see the sun again?

how do you associate people to be your 'good friends' or 'best friend'?

does it take you to be sacrificing or fitting into their schedule most of the time so that you may call each other good friends?

is there anyone outside whom i can call my good friend or best friend? or really it's the way i relate to people that is the problem..

but after last sun.. i need to reconsider a lot of things..

Thought that today was a good start of the day...

Dunno why today's alarm seems exceptionally LOUD and it seems to bug me to wake up when I wanna sleep more... Almost seems like being pulled out of bed.. zzz .. Probably that is a good thing though.

Gotten out of bed, went to work, everything was as per normal and saw Ronaldo on the way to work and chatted before he dropped off on his way to JW.

Went to set up my classes, coz had prepared them yesterday so everything was ok until one of the lecturers throw a surprise today that kind of spoilt the day a bit... then the participants also in a uproar.. roar~~~ call himself a psychologist... so now got double job of having to make extra calls~

anyway thank God for Miss Seek of dropping a nice sms in the morning so everything is like ok now.. haha.. it came in timely~

anyway now it's almost 10.30am.. going back to work!

Whenever you wake up, ever asked yourself how you want this day to be shaped? What do you want to achieve in this day itself? What dreams will I have today?


Haha I've always been thinking how life will have been if I'm without dreams and goals, without something to look forward to everyday. Perhaps dry, without a direction so will be at a loss as to what to do at times?
Thank God really that there are always things I want to go for, everyday. That He had given me dreams, talents and exposing me to areas where i can use my skill to benefit others.

So what is this dream I'm talking about? To be involved in social work, helping the less fortunate especially families to re-build their homes and to give the young a better future. Making a difference in their lives as well.

Since young I had always been associated to be self centered and basically, I don't know how to share. If my brother needs anything I won't relent and what is mine will be mine. Selfish? Yup absolutely.


After graduation from secondary school and into polytechnic, I was being exposed real-time to what we call voluntary work or community services. A group of 5 of us set up a club called NP Soleil which aims at helping the residents of Red Cross Home for the Disabled under Singapore Red Cross Association. What we did was to organise monthly visits to the Home, with many different activities related to festive seasons etc.
I still remember one of the bigger projects we had was to bring the residents out in SBS buses to Orchard Road during Christmas to view the lightings and all. Absolute wow with what we could do and I could always remember the smiles on the faces of the residents back then. The students and lecturers themselves too had the fun and through this I found the joy to help people with needs to be met.


Anyway time in NP was short but was experiential. Thank God for the oppurtunity to be helping out in volunteer work out of school and that's when I got to know CHCSA and Vic aka my CGL is one of the social workers there. So can imagine the number of activities I could be involved in, even till this day!! =)

Being there, exposed to me to greater areas of serving and the projects can be so diverse, from painting one-room flats to workshops at schools, to camps and projects aim at changing lives through books etc. And groups that I had came across with range from ex-inmates, youths, elderlys and families in need.

It is through all these that I realise I want to reach out to these groups of people to make a positive difference in their lives. God has also through all these events, taught me that people are the key, not the SOPs or the technical items of the event. Just like how a country values its people as the main resource.
That is also why right now I'm planning to take up Psychology degree with UB in SIM in August and so far I had people affirming that I'm actually on the right track so thank God for this. =)

I'm very excited about realising this dream of mine and as long as people is my passion and with God in it, I'll have a great future ahead! This also came by through ushering in church and event management in my current job that I can be equipped better for the future too! Amen to that!
Found it funny but I ever thought of setting up a business, a social enterprise to help me realise that dream and event management can be the thing! :P

So what is your dream?



No dream is ever too small. Dare to dream BIG!

I was taking a quick glance at my blog entries dated a yr back and suddenly a lot of memories floodback into my mind. Not realising that I had gone through them nor had any impression of them till I read them.

Things about staying in faith, interesting things that happened in everyday life, promises that I had made etc.

Thank God for archives somehow. Haha... It came to me that all those are my pasts, they serve as memories, as the foundation for me to get stronger and taller. They will not be my hinderance but stepping stones for my future. I do value the past, but the future holds more than what I had gone through in the past.
That is why I am embracing my future and letting go of the past right now...

But well easier said than done... some parts of my past, i can't seem to let go but got to try.. kind of miss her well.. and haven't seen her for some yrs now? haha.. till laters~

Thats me! Haha.. Pretty interesting. Can do this test on http://oneishy.com/personality

Personality / Temperament for Junius Solomon

Test taken on April 13th 2009

Personality: Melancholy Sanguine

Melancholy Strength:2 Weakness:12 35% Read more about Melancholy Strengths Read more about Melancholy Weaknesses Phlegmatic Strength:3 Weakness:5 20% Read more about Phlegmatic Strengths Read more about Phlegmatic Weaknesses

Sanguine Strength:9 Weakness:1 25% Read more about Sanguine Strengths Read more about Sanguine Weaknesses Choleric Strength:6 Weakness:2 20% Read more about Choleric Strengths Read more about Choleric Weaknesses

It has been a great easter wkend last fri to sun..

On the Fri and Sun I was serving I was so wowed by how God can works in the heart of people with the number of friends turning up for services and those who respond to the altar call... It came to a realisation and I did share with some close ones that ushering is no longer about filling up the seats but about the people, those serving and being served.

And being able to serve with fellow leaders and ushers totally excites me and seeing how we all grow from our mistakes and experiences, way cool!

More importantly, my bro is now saved!!! Haha!! Glad that it happens and I pray God will continue to work in his life for a greater purpose!

one revelation i have over this week was that what I do, my actions and my intentions may be perceived as something different by other people.
I do have my own reasons for doing certain things which I feel are important at that point of time and yeap in some parts of me I do need to change and sometimes I do seem imposing perhaps. Unintentionally and I'm still learning. Well that aside...

had a fun fellowship with a good fren on Sunday and certainly nice chatting with you. shared many things as well and pretty amazed how this friendship took a leap for the better over a short period of 6 mths perhaps? haha!
will look forward to more chit chatting sessions!

till laters! =)

Watch Andrew Johnston - Britains Got Talent in Music  |  

Amazing video about this 13 yr old Andrew Johnston in Britain's Got Talent.

How such a young boy able to rise up pursuing his dreams despite being pinned down by his peers and amazingly, amazingly portraying the that spirit through his passion and singing.

Woot back fm fellowship today~~

Today was way fuNnnnNNNnnn!!!


Let's see.. Today manage to wake up real late like close to 2pm? Since when do u find me that piggy? OopS!! Haha


Went for service and was raining cats and dogs during the train service and the weather sure was cold!!

Least when we reached expo the sun was coming out and it certainly was buzzing with people!!

Anyway was helping out in stage and sat down for the drama.. sure was great sitting in the front and enjoying the drama to the max! Haha...
Today thank God for His grace that my bro received salvation today!! And he get to shake hands with Pst Kong, Pst D and Pst Tan!! So jealous!!! Ahhhhh! hahaha!


After service went to makan.. haha fun to fellowship with the guys.. somehow i just have this gift of identifying someone that don't feel right on the inside at that moment.. very random but it does works.. and it's those very serious kind and like what most ppl say, God works in the most random ways! :P


Had a looong fellowship and now i'm here blogging again.. wow it's 12.30am le.. zzz.. oh no.. less than one day before going to work!! I want to have the monday off to slack!!!! Haiz.. Nvm..


Gonna be turning in now.. it's going to be a great day tmr!! See u guys!

by the way, I love W325!! =D

roar!!!!!!

Somehow I sense a death in me and I want to admit it so that a new resurrection power can come!

I dun want to fall back behind others, more importantly away from my Father. I want to run after Him and walk beside Him.

Psalm 23

A Psalm of David.

¹ The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
² He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
³ He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.

⁴ Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
⁶ Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD
Forever

Amen

*Yawn* Just woke up not long ago.. hee..

Today's gonna be a great day! Gonna be bringing my brother for svc later and certainly have the chance to catch the drama production on the Final Solution! Oh man can't wait for later actually!! Haha!!

Till laters~

I want to be free.

The freedom to love, worship and guide.

No constraints or limits.

I set my own limits.

Whenever I get caught in the rain, surely melancholy will catch up on me. Feeling down, out, disappointed...

How I wish I'll disappear as fast as the rain drops appear.

But rain don't last forever. There will be a time when the sun will shine through the dark sky. As the sun rays upon the land, it brings new hope and warmth into my heart.
I know a brighter day is ahead of me.

But that's not all, I know that through the rain and to when the sun shines, You have been looking out for me, making sure I am safe always. You are always there for me.

I feel secured when my hand touches yours, and the smile on your face reassures me.

I know why You are always there. Because of the love You have for me. You are always that faithful, my Abba father. I love You.

Smile!!

Keep your smile, to brighten someone else's day. (not to mention to show off your white teeth too!)

Crazy schedule this week:

Mon - only free day~~~

Tue - PM @ JW

Wed - CHCSA Cope Book mtg @ Suntec

Thu - Support @ Expo

Fri - Sun - Easter day cum harvest @ Expo!

Hopefully this sun after duty i can go out to chill with some friends. Gonna recharge myself!! =)

ok! Gonna blog a lil' while before i go back to work.. *bad sol i know but haha.. shhh*

Yesterday's PM was simply great. Really enjoyed God's presence and somehow, things were different as I felt I need to come on to another level of self diligence to seek Him even more and not depending on just PMs or church gatherings to feel His presence as well.
After PM Pastor as sharing with the church some concerns he has over the church and i thought those were pretty relevant not just to the church leadership from the cgls but also to personal life as well.
And one more thing, sitting in the front row was the best man!! Haha nth beats seating in the front and wow yesterday sure was a lot of people as well!

Suddenly it came to my realisation how things had been in my life and i should start changing my paradigm shift of thinking to something i can find a belonging and an anchor to. Definitely I haven't been functioning well in ministry since 2 months back and well, guess it was pretty obvious to some. So the shift of my mindset will come in handy and necessary if i want to move on.
Waiting for things to happen is not the same as having an expectation for that one thing to take place. One involves an action plan, another doesn't. I almost came to a stage of just leaving things as it is because my involvement is causing me to fall due to the weakness of my foundation. Just had a revelation yesterday that i should start working on the basics, strengthen my foundation and be courageous to face my mistakes and correct them.
Ultimately it's not about rising up through the ranks for the convenience of authority over others but about the trust both up and down have in you as you serve and lead. Who's the up? God and the leaders He had placed above you. The down? They are those God has placed under you to shepherd and disciple. Promotion is God-ordained and given upon recognition when you showed that you can do it. There will be little tests to test your capability and capacity to handle what's coming. Your leader may be ready to raise you up, but you have to be ready yourself to take on the challenge and the responsibilities ahead.
What constitutes the challenge and responsibilities ahead? The arenas which your leader had faced before but you are going through it on a different measure, new frontiers you will be breaking through as someone new in the rank, people looking up to you having new expectations, yourself being pushed out of the comfort zone to execute what's necessary. Most importantly it's the growth and your own determination on how you want things to happen.

When there are setbacks, emotions are bound to kick in and more often than not they are the negatives that includes sadness, disappointments, guilt (perhaps), rejected even. Very often as well, the emotions clouds the way we think and feel that it cause us to be dysfunctional. To such an extent we may let things go, drop the ball and expect things to fall from the sky. We definitely need to breakthrough from that.

God as well, likes us to manage our lives in all aspects. Be it family, friends, work, studies or finances, God has called us to be a steward in everything He gave to us. You may not be a leader in a ministry or a cell group but you are definitely a leader in your own life. You lead your life, not others. Yes parents may have a rule over you but on a final stand, you are the one to decide what you want, not your parents nor your friends.
Should one area fail due to poor stewardship, God will not bless you in that area until you rectify it. Sadly but true, however for sure God will bring you out of that situation with victory no matter what, for no matter how long it takes. Yup.

For once in a big day I'm actually not serving on all days but actually gonna spend one day with the cg and friends. Amazing but woohoo! Breakthrough! Anyway I have a switch to be in this new cg call W325 with amazing people and a leader called Phoebe! Haha! I just told myself I'm going to commit to make this cg a happening one, dunno why I did this but definitely it's going to be abreakthrough even for myself as well! Soul winning harvest season is on!!!
The new cg's dynamics are very different and i'm sure I'm looking forward to knowing more of you and enjoying the days ahead with you guys.
I may have just realised as well that I'm not a cgc as well. Or at least I doubt I'm one now. Haha..
Nothing bad or sad about it but it has been a switch of my focus as I want to lead the younger generation with a heart of serving and i want to build them up on their level to the next higher level, not by leading. Yup Pei en may be right that cgc is just a position but the position itself carries a responsibility and a name that people will look up to like ranks in the armed forces. However don't get me wrong that I'm contented to be a normal member.
Somehow God has shaped me to be 'restless if i'm not serving or doing anything at all'. If I do see something that needs to be done i'll just go ahead. It's just me! And I'm definitely more pro in doing backstage work than going upfront to lead people into the frontline of engaging people etc. So that also makes me a very technical person to a certain extent, very SOP etc. And that's something i'm trying to break from to be more creative to how to get things done.

In the area of UM, definitely it has been a calling confirmed by God. And it has been this reason why I'm putting a lot of time to serve. Not a bad thing yeap but have to watch myself also not to neglect cg.
And of course right now things had been mundane, I'm sort of lost in my direction and hence as mentioned by Karen, I need to find an anchor in the ministry, be it Logistics or to the section.
There will come a time when leaders will fail me, and I will fail others we well. As such I have to bear in mind that God should be in the center of this ministry and one i'm hanging on to is Him and not so much on the people though they are still important. Important in terms of discipleship, relationship/friendship and fellowship. Their presence will definitely make a difference in my life.
Right now as mentioned above, I need to strengthen my foundation before my breakthrough can come. Sometimes I'll just have this weird 'instincts' that my breakthrough won't come "until I've settled this", "until I do this well", "until i get that right" kind of thing. Kind of interesting and recently HS had been prompting in my heart about certain things as well and I'm glad there were some leaders that had spoken into my life about certain issues. Thanks for your presence around and nothing beats having them around me.
So what breakthrough am I talking about? I also don't know but i am able to recognise it when I'm in it that's for sure. Until then, I have to continually watch myself in my every step as a form of discipleship to my own and onto God as I deal away with the bad points that's hindering me.

Anyway think I'd typed enough... Better run off to work now. Till later!!

Toodles! =)

Last week had been a gruelling week in itself...
Somehow more of the personality and character building for myself..

Anyway enough of the negatives... Time to focus on how to build myself up and strengthen myself... Read more, pray more and have more manhood! Haha.. Weird to hear that but yea...
More wise in my financial management, more resourceful to make things happen, to be functional despite being emotional!

Looking forward in the days ahead to have an anchor, to strengthen my foundation so that I can climb higher and go further!

Thanks Karen, Yonghui and Eugene for being around to affirm and there to encourage! You guys are the best and it's good having you as my spiritual mentors!

last of all, God You rocks! =)

this morning's PM @ JW was certainly great!!

This morning was certainly lovely, had the blessing of taking Matt's car, reached church spent time with some ushers and later with God (felt totally at peace and in the flow), worshipping was great and after service had a wonderful fellowship with my zone members (current SOT students) and was went for work, on time and on the dot!

How great can one morning be? :P *Gleams*

one more day to go before this wk of PM ends~ next is in June..

oh got one project in liaise with CHCSA. we are creating sth that helps to promote the 3 main dialect groups (Hokkien, Teochew and Cantonese) to the youths in Singapore, educating on how to speak the dialects, introducing the history and cuisine involved!! And many many more!!

Interested?
Expected launch is on Mother's Day 2009 itself. More details to be given so stay tuned!!