Being Teachable and Leadership

wow.. looks like dust collection level's up to 1metre in this blog, better clear the dust away, haha! *blows off the dust*

This morning when I woke up, amazingly these 2 words came into my mind and was pondering over it which seemed like hours but only minutes had passed because of the things that followed.

Wanted to cry somehow as I reflected upon myself in these 2 areas: Being Teachable and Leadership.
Teachable not just to the leaders above me, but personally more towards God. How has my life being effective enough for Him, not on Saturdays and Sundays but during the days outside a church environment?
The way I commune with people, maintaining and fostering relationships, productivity, time i spent with Him and more importantly, my attitude.
Frankly to say on the outside I may look great or seem so good in doing certain things that I can't be left out, deep down at times I may feel so lost or my attitude simply sucks to the bottom (forgive me for using this word, haha)

And when poor attitude or character is within you, God is not hesitant about surfacing it really, to people who are dear to you when He's serious about you reflecting and changing it. No longer it's about the guilt, being regretful for your actions or being apologetic about the whole thing because previously you may have wasted your chances before. Well that's me on some occasions recently really. Areas of discipline, finances, faithfulness.

God's faith is ever abundant but there is a limit to what He can tolerate before He takes on a different route to deal with you (just like parents who will try the harsh method if the soft method don't work on the child, yea...)
My weakness is really presenting myself as being weak, person that's not 'perfect' to who? My leaders whom I hold dear to, my friends and peers. Probably it's the pride issue too coz' you may start thinking that this person may not respect you or let you handle this and that anymore after this incident so you try to cover up to show that I can do this and that...
So PTL really that He choose to deal issues with me using that weakness of mine. Not saying it's bad but it's really comical when He just simply knows you more than you know yourself? Haha...

Being teachable is about having the right attitude, to learn from your mistakes, using them as a form of foundation building, and building yourself up from it.
Being unteachable will be having the bad attitude, feeling sour from the mistakes you'd made that you think of lots of reasons to cover them up, and instead of using them as a form of foundation building, you start building the mistakes up.

Of course it takes a decision to have that. And probably some things to go along will the boldness and courage to admit and learn, willingness to repent and reflect, and doing the right actions to rectify. But doesn't all sums up to having the right attitude and you definitely have to be sincere about it and ensures a thorough follow-up such that it do not come back to you again. i guess also that how we should deal with all the trials we experience, now and the future.


Later on God was showing me on the area of leadership and reminding of the people who are with me like my dear ushers in my usher team, the LPs in the Logistics dept and my connect group members plus cell group.
Sounds like a lot of things to take care right? Haha...
Suddenly something surfaced in my heart that said "I cannot bring you to greater heights to lead unless you are willing to change and being teachable" (some sort along the line, still in sleepy mode at that time)
Thank God for all things that had happened and progressed like the chance to be more involved in Logistics dept, stepping up to be a connect grp leader and BS teacher again and recognised and acknowledged to be released into serving in UM.
But those above are already capacitated to the max at my current level. Meaning with what I am now, those are the things I can do at max. And I had been running and serving at this level for too long that it's becoming dry seriously.
Leadership's not about having the power and the chance to lead or serve. That is the base but it involves one on a more personal level whereby you have to constantly push yourself to greater heights, how? by fresh new revelations and visions coming from God through time spent with Him in prayer, fasting and reading of the Word etc.

Only when God builds you up, can you build up others!

No one can function as an effective leader when all He does at best is to bring those under him up to his level and stops there. Growth is an ever progressive thing really. What's the point when all he can do is to build people up when he doesn't or can't build himself up through God? (i'm speaking to myself actually, hahaz!!)
In 2007 on my 21st bday, God brought me to a transition of being a people's person and not ministry person and reminded me that my world should and will surround people.

Yet I feel so ineffective in the last few months when I'm shock to find I had nothing to give, feed to my ushers or my disciples and even if i could, it was all the things I had from the past which superbly are not for the now.

I'm not sure but God works in amazing way at times. He will place people who are really excellent in their own field or talent under me and potential is so evident in their lives that you just can't wait to unleash their potential to serve God in His kingdom. Peeps like wei liang, yao peng, jacob, carlos, mark, tim, gordon etc. So many, so many. I'm so proud of them for who they are!
I do not want to come to a point whereby I'm so ineffective that they will disregard me as their peer and mentor because that will indicate one thing: I had failed in my responsibility as a leader, in the spiritual realm and especially in my personal life.

I was being reminded of this teaching "When you hit the ceiling of your growth, learn to breakthrough by receiving new revelations and visions from God. Only then can you be able to feed those whom you are discipling."

How true is that!!
I'm on a competition to change myself for the better because time is running short, even as I'm blogging right now. I need to start now.


*A lil' summary that I have just out of what I typed*
Being teachable yourself to God --> Transition in self --> Grow to be a better Leader --> Discipleship to others --> Leading others to grow.

(P.S. God is so amazing to flood so many things within a short few mins with Him today only. Blown away!)