I need to get things moving and going. I need to start the momentum!!

There's this immense amount of energy waiting to be released and the faster things are going, the greater that energy. That's the synergy of life. And because God is the motivation and the inspiration of all things, this synergy becomes a greater force not to be fiddled with. =)

I have this personal burden, to take things seriously and to initiate ideas + acting upon it rather than waiting for the time to be reminded then it gets done. Holy Spirit is ever-moving especially from the mundane Monday to Friday routine, constantly giving new ideas and it all depends how receptive and accepting one is towards the Holy Spirit.

Of course once it starts, how it ends totally depends on you.

Don't feel anything right now.. Even my surrounding is so quiet and dark...

Anyway today there's like so many people coming to me asking me to see doc.. haiz never been so sick before ah.. But God is still good that when the occasion arises I'm still able to focus but doubt it can last for very long.. I'll see how if really really cannot take it then I go see doc, k? (hopefully until then still able to go see doc haha!)

But there are many things to do in office and deadlines are drawing near liao!!! =( And not getting very effective at work liao...

Gtg now... toodle..

haha I'm feeling so excited right now! *done some sharing with Vic through a very loooonnnnggg email which i'm glad I'd let it out*

sorry for not updating this blog everyone! Here's some short updates..

Yesterday we went out to celebrate 81's bday. It was KTV session cum games cum fellowship. Glad that things worked out well and everyone enjoyed themselves. =) But it was a dramatic day to start with because I had mild food poisoning and I couldn't move less moving between bed and the toilet for one hour plus. Thank God after praying I felt better (still painful and weak to move) and went down for the event. Had to go and collect the cake plus other preps to do etc.
Thank God for His grace throughout the entire event that at crucial times I was able to focus in leading games and not feel the pain and all and the place was really vibrant with everyone enjoying themselves!
Yea! 2 thumbs up for the whole thing especially to Karen as she was the mastermind of everything except one thing, her own birthday celebration!! We threw in a surprise bday celebration for her but things didn't went too well at first so I was like frantic jumping up and down but glad that it was still a surprise! Haha! *Operation Surprise a success!!*

Anyway until the end of the event, the body just couldn't take it and went home early though wanted to join the rest for fellowship... Ended up sleeping for 11 hours till today before going to work. Even in the morning don't feel like going to work and to stay home to rest but God is good! Can't imagine the amount of work I have tomorrow if I didn't go today?!?!

Over the weekend was alright with attending svc on Saturday and Sunday having ministry in the morning. Sermon was good as Pst was preaching about the DNA of our church and it was really enjoyable! Sun duty was pretty alright with no cock-ups and things went smoothly and somehow don't know whether to thank God or not because after the service when the whiteboard was returned back to Logistics, one of the wheels broke! (at least it didn't broke on stage...)

Anyway Sun afternoon was Youth'Em 4: Freedom of Choice! Haha man we sure had lots of fun there, seeing Wenjuan and Jeremy rapping for the 1st time on stage but they sure did a good job! It was definitely the best event yet proudly brought to you by the young, energetic, vibrant youths of DT zone! Heh.. Oh must I say that Lionel has such good charisma leading worship on stage and John + Rallen's performance being so good that you want to have an endless list of encore performances from them? Haha!! And B.Darren was so funky with all the hip hop actions and you certainly don't see this side of him often but it's something new that we see. Rock on B.Darren!! =D

That basically sums up for the last weekend and more exciting days ahead with Building Fund in 3 days and Asia Conference in 18 days! =)

Toodles

Now still on the season of my F.O.C.U.S. haha...

Shared some things with Vic and things seem to be getting on track... prayerfully still that I'd made the right choice and definitely want to have the blessings of Vic at the same time. Somehow she still feels differently.. Hmm...

Today's been a great day and I didn't doze off in front of the com today!! Feel so proud of myself!! *winks* It's all thanks to the 13hours of sleep I had the night before, from 7.30pm till next morn 8.15am! Very piggy I know but I was simply too tired on Monday...

2 more months till end of year 2008. Are there any goals yet to be fulfilled? What I'm hoping for, will it come by this year end? It's not my key focus but somehow I still desire that I move on to that stage. Yeap...

Building fund's coming too.. Till now I haven't got a figure to pledge for in 2 weeks time but I believe it's gonna be a bigger miracle than the last 3 seasons and a miracle will take place this time again! =) Gonna start fasting and be praying more for the next 2 weeks le. Gonna be hard but gambatte!! =)

So what is it about you that you need to fulfill by this year end? =)

Man.. So fast! It's already coming to Wednesday le! =)

Can't wait for the weekends to come but in the meantime, many exciting programs coming up!!!

Tmr - BS at Riverwalk
Thu - Dinner with MC (still pending though...)
Fri - Wheel of Life @ Riverwalk (Last session, the best yet!!)
Sat - Svc + Logis re-org?
Sun - Ministry + Youth'Em (last but yet the best!!) + Shopping!!

Counting down to Asia Conference, 4 weekends from now! It's like so fast... Many things to go on, taking place and a time for growth for many of us here. Expect a great time of reaping, leveling, growing and expansion in capacity for that 5 days!! Really cannot wait for it to come!

just came back from svc today.. wow the sermon was really SOLID. talking about the 4th dimension way of thinking and visualising..

Pst also shared about how faith the size of a mustard seed (almost naked to the eye) can be used mightily to move the mountains when you speak to it or think about it~ Frankly speaking I was so blown away by it! Esp by the testimonies he shared with the above principle!

At almost the end of svc Pst asked the church to write down what we want to visualise in 5 areas of our life and most amazingly, believing God for it to happen!

1. Health - To be free from sinuses from today on!!!
2. Finance - To earn at least 3K a month. To have a 4-fig savings minimum in bank account. Lol.
3. Marriage/Family - For reconciliation of relationship in family between my parents.
4. Career - To set up social entreprise to meet the social needs of the society. (haven't come p with anything specific yet)
5. Ministry - To rise up in UM, as Chief Usher eventually, to raise up new generation of leaders willing to pick up the cross and impact the world especially the unsaved with their willingness to serve.

What's yours to take in the 4th Dimension? =)

FOCUS!

Finding
Own
Calling
Under
Stress

strangely had a thought of it when I was bathing.. so funny la..
Now need to search for own calling plus I'm stressed. This might had been a pre-warning.. Haha..

eh not sure about the stress part.. will need to find a better word to represent it probably..

Armour bearer... What does it mean to be one?

Like how David became the armour bearer of King Saul and defeated Goliath with 5 stones?

What's the definition behind it?

Ability to contain the growth.. both external and internal.. what's my capacity to own such growth?

Got a wake up call today.. No longer can I shun or ignore of what's my calling really in serving God.. Suddenly the responsibility becomes so great and somehow, I need to find my own personal revelation!

Not much time left le.. No longer can I be contented in just serving and helping out, i need to find the place where I can fully explore and release my potential to serve God the best I can..

But I'm confused somehow.. I need to get myself out of this confusion soon..

I believe I can do it.. I can!! I cannot let myself down, let alone the people who have faith in me!

It's wednesday, morning le!!

Recently bio-clock going haywire le.. been sleeping 'early' in the morning and waking up late~ sianz..

For 3 weeks in a row for 1 day each, been taking cab to work for waking up late or if not I couldn't hear the alarms! Haiz!

Anyway, have to kick this habit away man.. so not nice to be late for work though boss dun say anything.. haha...

Random blogging...

It's 1am in the morning le... Thinking of what happened today actually..

Willingness vs Balancing vs Priorities..

So interesting at times really and in this season I'm with these 3 words.... How to handle them well is really a test in itself..

I'm searching, but I know I will find it soon enough..

In the finishing line, I know You are waiting for me there, to go on another race with You..

Somehow I'm just crazy about blogging.. Somehow...

I just love God, simply. He's always there so faithfully standing by me and everything He does is in the right time and season.

God, I need more of You and definitely I know especially in this season, I cannot walk road alone without You. I had missed You once and now I'm back to where I had stopped. It's time for me to continue the journey, making the right turn this time.

My To-do list this season:

Cell group:

• Grow the cell group to 20 by end of this year.
• Integration of new friends into the cell group, to have regular attendance for at least a month.
• Lead games, share offering messages and testimonies.

Connect group:

• Integration of new friends like Yang Wei and Wanting.
• Each youth to know each other better, relationships forged.
• To do one out-of-this-world activity for the youths by end of this year.
  
• To train up 2 people to rise up. (disciple making in session!!!)
• To be there for the members whenever I can.

UM (Personal, Team and Section levels)

• Better bonding and understanding for everyone in the section.
• To train up new leaders (1 in 6 months at least) *got target liao btw*
• Make the section more family-like!
• Build up the spiritual atmosphere of the section.
• Be a TL by Jan 2009.

UM Logistics:

• Logis gathering at the end of the year.
• Logis contact list.
• Makeover of Expo Logis room!
• Logistics Inventory system set up before Asia Conference.
• Get new understudies!!! =D
  

Glad that God has been faithful and the people around me watching over me.. If not will just be going in circles.

Somehow I just set myself up into this realm called 'Calling' and so many issues came up from there. Well, sooner or later I'll need to deal with it so why not do it now? Haha.

Many of us have the potential to do great things, blessed with the talents and gifts God had placed inside of us, thus waiting for it to be released to maximum impact. And because of the unique talents and gifts, it makes each of us unique. Also creating the destiny and calling God wants us to be in.

We can decide upon what we want to do, based on what we are good at, having the best results out of what it's done by us. From there we may decide that is the 'calling' God wants us to be in. Nothing really wrong with that but is that what God want us to do in His Kingdom? Of course not everyone is called to be a cell group leader, an usher head, a pastor etc because of the unique DNA of each individual.

I'm starting to recognise that God has called us into different ministries for various reasons. One is to answer to the needs of the ministry, for others it's a training ground, a platform for something greater meant for them. And all these are decided based on what God wants you to be with the talents and gifts He had given.

Anyway now at this stage, I seriously cant help but to think where am I called to be. Many people that I had spoke to had already knew what's for them (Praise Him for that!) but well, I'm still in the midst of finding out. For me, it's either in usher or in cell group though. Not sure why I tend to struggle so much but Yonghui is right about one thing, I need a spiritual conviction to ground myself, to know my calling.
(I still remember a year ago I was very insistant of being in UM that I had neglected my CG and everything halted, therefore having to make a U-turn and now, I'm here talking about my calling. How interesting...)

Thank God too for spiritual leaders like Vic and Yonghui whom I know I can safely entrust my life to 101% of it. On Wednesday I had actually met both of them for fellowship (on seperate occasions of course..) and this topic was like the highlight of the conversation. Vic initiated with questions that got me thinking, and Yonghui seemed to be the one providing some light to the answers I need to have (complimentary partnership, haha)
Whatever the outcome may be in the end, I still want to find myself serving God and fulfilling the very thing He has for me.

As of now like what I had told Vic, I'll faithfully and willingly support her in her vision and standing in the gap with the cg and connect group, at the same time building up and to serve in usher ministry.. I'll just do what I need to do and let the rest fall into place naturally.

(P.S. God if You are reading this, I hope I'm making the right move.. if not, just let me know ya? =) )

Actually i wonder, how many ppl know about this blog especially after B.Darren helped to 'advertise' it.. haha..