Ability to contain the growth.. both external and internal.. what's my capacity to own such growth?

Got a wake up call today.. No longer can I shun or ignore of what's my calling really in serving God.. Suddenly the responsibility becomes so great and somehow, I need to find my own personal revelation!

Not much time left le.. No longer can I be contented in just serving and helping out, i need to find the place where I can fully explore and release my potential to serve God the best I can..

But I'm confused somehow.. I need to get myself out of this confusion soon..

I believe I can do it.. I can!! I cannot let myself down, let alone the people who have faith in me!