The last week had been a roller coaster ride in terms of ups and downs in life and certainly some matters had gone on to a greater deal, which certainly pushed me to being more conscious about my environment and no longer in my own world.

Problem about though i'm good at many things but i'm not best at something because of my inability to focus, the urge of wanting to do so many things but either i have little or no results at all, failing to look at everything lies within myself and not other matters, the power of delegation and entrusting people with responsibilities for them to grow.
Many many more that I have to tackle but generally, things are still going on well and more things to handle and to balance. What's the definition of true balance?

Glad to a certain extent that I'm still hanging on but time to let certain things go for others to do, free myself up for more time on myself so that i may serve and excel more effectively to others and God Himself.

I want to rise up, I want to focus, I want to lead so to serve.
I can't be slow to move, slow to act. Must be decisive and be active and urgent yet on the right note, not under nor over. If I can wait, doesn't mean others can wait as well.

Still wanna thank the many leaders over my life that's constantly watching over me and to whom those i can learn from whenever the oppurtunity arises.

I need to break free from hiding under other ppl's coverings to be a covering for others, look at things in the bigger picture Junius SolomoN!!!!!!

*nudges himself!!!!*

What are you doing really?

I hear so many different things about you from different sources and even from yourself, that I don't know who to believe...

I don't want to intervene yet... Haiz...

Pressed down, for greater capacity.

Pressed down, to rise up higher.

Pressed down, to endure greater stress.

Pressed down, to feel the discomfort.

Pressed down, to know what is up above in a greater measure.

Pressed down, to see what is ahead.

Pressed down, for God's purpose and calling.

Another random post on another random day...

Sometimes I'm thinking what am i lacking in order to achieve where I want to be?
Promotions come because of various reasons and very often it's because you are qualified for it, that's why you have it. And even if you don't have it now doesn't mean you won't have it in the future, it's just a preparation stage for you. The only difference between you and another person is perhaps your preparation stage is longer than the rest?

If I can tell others this, why can't I accept that fact? I can be doing so well in Logis but how come nothing seem to progress for me at section or ministry level? Aren't things suppose to be on par especially if Logis is like an extended arm of UM but i'm just not progressing so well in UM? Ahhh God what's the thing you are showing to me?

I don't want to focus on the promotions anymore, I just want to serve you wholeheartedly and nothing else!!!!! Not on the negatives anymore... God lead me to where you want me to... I want to sacrifice the flesh and have the spirit living within me now!!

sometimes i just wonder... i thought i had given up on wanting to be a counter to go into oscar and will be contented to helping out outside after duty but today, i knew i had not given up totally on it after today...

i wonder what's the progression like in this transition..ahhh... God what is the plan you have for me? I'm thankful that I'm progressing so much in Logistics department and I certainly enjoy my time there but... I dunno I'm just confused.. But never mind I shall be contented with what i have.. ultimately You will be the one to provide for me!

points to note:

1. being understanding towards people especially... once he understand things he'll do it faithfully, got to explain things to him. cannot shout at him
2. understand the accountability of each life to their love ones, that safety is a concern and the overseeing should be there.
3. to provide the spiritual covering necessary, as an overseer such that i have the overall picture in mind knowing the details of each and every follow up.
4. be there to watch over and ensure things are running, understand the rationale for each move.
   
5. cannot be doing everything by myself, if so who's going to oversee me?
   
6. understand that overseeing is not just watching and giving instructions but see that things are going to fill in the gap.
   
7. learn not to discredit my leader by agreeing in what she says
8. i must learn to look at things not at the micron level only, but the reasons and rationale behind them, on a higher level. learn to think differently!!!
   

What I learn from Sun's shifting. Praise The Lord! =)

God is ever that faithful.. And indeed what you ask for will come to past because of Him..

This 2 months had been a good break, sort of like a 'replaced-back' rest from the endless weekends of Expo visits and though there were days when i just slacked totally but there were days when I had fruits!
Currently looking at starting work next Monday @ NIE for non-teaching post... Though far but through high-ways and by-ways, i'll make it happen!! So good to be working again and thank God for the answer to my prayers. In the mean time I may have to look at postponing my admission to UB to a later intake than the original May.
In the meantime, gotta take this chance to clear my BF, clear all my debts, start to have savings and in time for uni as well.
Somehow i sense i won't stop at just working at NIE these few months only but will continue on~~ heh heh..

anyway today had been great because i realise i'm stepping into an unknown arena in ministry and it just excites me. Into the area of standing in the gap, of getting things going, of setting things right.. it's just the beginning but things will be better, not definitely but infinitely!!! And also other unknown things probably..
Perhaps someone can come into the picture to guide me, I'm so afraid of stepping in and making mistakes if alone... I wish for Karen to be around but she can't give me the attention I need (she did mention I had been too overly-active seeking her attention) and have to learn to be accountable to her in other ways, now also to Ade as well... Help!!

In the meantime, I'm hungry... Need to eat.. Hahaz!

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Greater things, yet to come

Somehow after this zone transition... I sense a greater challenge coming...

A challenge to work with someone that had mentioned it's impossible to be friends, and does not want to talk to me anymore.

And of course working in a new field of young people when everyone is full of energy and definitely with new faith because of the child-like factor.
Looking forward to having a fun time tmr for a start and perhaps maybe the new changes will be announced? Or even next wkend?

I'm so going to miss my previous cg and Vic. They had impacted my life so much and ever since I took my 1st step into church, I never regretted my decision of staying and creating history with you guys because it's all worth it!
Much to the love and dedication of everyone, be it male or female, young or old. Because you guys are unique, that's what makes me unique too! =)

Yup, like I said, gonna embrace what's to come!!

Seems like I'm coming to a stage whereby I need to find my direction in ministry now. What am I to do from now on? Not that there aren't things for me to do (in fact it's quite a bit) but a clear direction. God had given me the head start in the area of Logistics Department and welfare within the section. Thank God for leaders like Eugene, Alan, Yonghui, Tze Hwa and Karen for the discipleships and trainings.
Ultimately it's not about being a CU or a ACU (thank God if it comes in the end) but really, what's the purpose of me in this ministry after God you had confirmed it's the one for me? Yup there's the conviction but I need something more, that will shape and define who I am and will be in the future. Something unique of my own to contribute to this ministry and this part of Body of Christ.

God, with you comes new faith, and thus new possibilities! =)