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last sun finalised the 6 week long BLTC @ Expo and Beatrice finished it pretty nicely with what a leader is all about.

L: Leading with a servant heart
E: EQ
A: Attitude, Availability, Accountability
D: Determination with Tenacity
E: Eager to listen
R: Refresh daily in the Lord

Pretty good about what we had learnt for the last 6 weeks and certainly the touch of God was strong and revelations coming in with every lesson and every point covered. I want to touch lives, not just my leaders but also my peers and ushers in the ministry and certainly one thing I got to change is the attitude I carry while serving.
Attitude of serving with a servant heart and hence leading comes for Jesus had came down not to be served but to serve.
Very much at times while serving, majority of times I'll be serving with my own judgement and sometimes doing what HS had prompted me. I'm aiming to come to a level where both can merge and serving can be so much easier, seriously! (imagine no stress no matter how presurrising things are coz you know HS will be there to guide, even while carrying a set!) lol..


Whenever God's presence is felt in a place, it usually tells me one thing. God wants to be a part of what's happening in the place, especially the people that's within the room or hall. Be it ministering, blessing or simply touching and refreshing the person etc. And God places high importance in that matter because He is there, watching and waiting to do a work in there when the people are open to Him. So for that matter it just happened on Sun, in that conference room where the most exciting event happened! Not the lesson conducted by the trainers nor the washing of feet, but simply God was there!
Presence of God was strong, constantly lingering around and at times, He just simply reached out and touches you, in the heart and soul and it was so good! For the whole session tears really flow out like tap water. Even while blogging this I can feel His presence around ;)


I want to do one more thing over here.. That's to thank the leaders (esp the training department like Beatrice, Wan Yun, Yong hui, Ren Jie, Jeff, Xin Lian, Ivory, Hui Erl, Pei Fen <- did i miss out anyone hmmm) for taking the effort to travel, plan the whole course and sowing into our lives! It had been a great journey with you guys and certainly this is just the start and looking forward for more oppurtunities to be serving you and alongside with you!
THANK YOU! =D

anyway gonna get back to work.. tootles! till later! =)

a very random post today..

gonna talk about what's happening on tuesday really, during the leader's meeting @ JW. I would say i'm glad that I was there because it really made me discover something different about myself.

somehow a change was defined in me ever since the sun after Jeff was praying for me during altar call.
1. i no longer felt the fear of having to usher alone, if without any other ushers around (the confidence just came and it's simply amazing of course i was still praying for more help!!)
2. i found myself smiling no matter how hard things were when talking to the congregation, getting people to move when zone was STRICTLY not opened (bless those ppl), ushering under stress. (the HS was definitely there to make the peeps understand the situation and they had been nice to me as well!)
3. i found myself as well less lazy in really counting the peeps sitting at the overflow staircases and the +1 and 2s in each row. LOL..
4. i totally enjoy what I was doing as an usher, being to serve and lead at the same time!!
5. i felt so blessed as well when fellow ushers would ask if I needed help! (thank God for sending them)
6. i find myself in the area whereby i'm giving and receiving at the same time, and how much of those ain't important anymore because the focus is not onto them, is onto God and the people i'm giving to!
7. Daddy God is just so great!

Conclusion: I just love ushering for GOD!

Roy came up to me on the same day, asking if I could take a break from ushering for one day coz he just see me serving everytime he sees me! (i think ronaldo, phoebe, maria and jing wei will think the same as well) LOL.
Haha.. Roy, if you are reading this, i hope i had somehow answered why i love serving so much and God really changed my life through ministry. My deepest trench and pit, was experienced in this ministry and God showed me His grace the most in this ministry as well. It's like the 2nd spiritual family apart from CG to me. Though I'm still building on the r/s in the ministry and learning, i never regretted stepping into this place and can say it's the calling for me as of now!

You know something? I'm super blessed whenever you play the guitar that symphonises the heavens, sharing testimonies that rocks the place, fervency to make friends and strike conversations with ppl which shocks the souls of man, and singing that brings down the heavens onto earth. All those rocks!
I pray that one day, someone or a group will be like me in this case, be blessed with the way I usher, making them feel welcome with my greetings and smiles that totally melts down even the thickest ice, the gestures that totally exhibits the love of God so sacrificially, and bringing order to the House of God that everyone will enjoy the whole atmosphere during service or meetings!
All by exercising the talents God has given me and He had given you!


Of course ushering can make someone very technical and very SOP (by impression to most ppl) but God had taught me as well that :

ushering + me = usher, man's way but

ushering + me + God = usher, God's way

I ever shared with Phoebe when she asked me why I don't help out as much for CG. Haha reason being what I can do in CG I can do the same in ministry, raising up leaders, discipling, meeting the needs, serving etc.

It's to me, meeting the needs of the body of Christ, just that we are serving in different arenas. =)

However in CG, I'm taking on a much more supportive role, not so much of a leadership role in terms of befriending, bringing friends or even doing technical stuff like lyrics! Hopefully by taking on this role as well, I'm well better to support the CG and move along with it!

In any case, I PROMISE I PROMISE!!! This Sat I'll go out with the CG for fellowship after svc kk? I'll make myself available for that unless something last minute crops up.. (oops!) and more fellowships to follow!

I'll still want my roots to grow into the cg, into the lives of the members as well coz you guys are simply amazing to be standing together on the frontiers of the House of God with!

anyway i hope for those reading this post, got anything to share do flood my cbox! comments and responses totally welcome!

This is Our God - Hillsong

Your grace is enough
More than I need
By Your word I will believe
I wait for You
Draw near again
Let Your spirit make me new

I will fall at Your feet
I will fall at Your feet
And I will worship You here

Your Presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of Your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By Your spirit I am free

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon that cross
Great is the love
Poured out for all
This is Our God
Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Servant and King
Rescued the world
This is Our God

time for some updates..

weekend was at the norm with sat in church and helping out at logis, fellowship with jw gang and sun was duty... sun duty came as a personal touch because on the ground without a set, things just seem so different. Not saying carrying a set is bad but somehow the mind is just freed to be more objective and yet personal with people and the ushers.
Serving on Sunday was actually pretty fun as I managed to serve with my section after a long long time... =)

went for BLTC L5 yesterday as well. not so much of a lesson yesterday but i felt it was more of the ministering to the heart with God. we started off with a interview session with some leaders who shared their experience and part of it was meant to be a surprise bday celeb for Hui Erl but well, it wasn't that surprising in the end hahaz..

anyway it was praise and worship but the worship then was longer than usual, intention was to be connected to God and i just felt God's presence during the 2nd part of worship. Began to kneel before His presence, and just worshipped freely.
Saw a vision of myself as a plug and God as a electrical socket. When I was plugged in loosely to the socket, i may not receive the power in full and it tends to jump, inconsistent. But when I'm plugged in fully, the power will just flow consistently and at maximum. Just a vision I had...

Really thank God for the session really as Jeff began to pray for me, the anointing and the power just became so overwhelming.. For once it was confirmed to me that God does know my situation and I'm not alone actually, what I'm gg through is actually planned out by Him as well! Just felt the love of God all over again and it was really touching and sweet... Having to taste it all over again..

Have to learn to keep that constant!

Thank God for the leaders, for the affirmation by Him and the whole training and the ministry for what it had became of me today. Going to press on more!

Who knows what happens when I'm not at my current 1% but at 100%? =) gotta ACT and See! :)

just finished my cgm...
today B.Darren came and man it was good!!! haha!! Hope he'll come back again soon~~

Today he was teaching us about being a student and being interested in the lives of others and nt judge them at the first point. You never real know what potential that person has and what you can learn from the person.

About being humble and being so willing to learn from others!! =)

this wk gonna be exciting! Haha...

coming trips that i have:
June 5-7 will be at KL, 17-19 Jul in M'sia for diving heee!

weee... so excited!!! Why? Coz me going diving!!! Yay!! in July!! hahaha.. gonna be a life time experience diving for the first time hehee..

sometimes i just wish as we dive down to the deep, all the negatives of the hurts, sorrows, disappointments, anger will dive and drown with it..

And as we start surfacing up, what receives you is the sunlight which represents new start and hope to your life.

Sometimes however you just got to solve it on hand, right in the face of the problem. Sorrows, hurts, disappointments yes, they will come as you feel down not able to solve a problem or others criticising and putting you down.

But I always remember God is still good, all the time. He will always be there for me, no matter what. Even if something bad happens, i still trust in my daddy God and all things will be alright in the end.

Now I'm thinking, can i be there for just the one person out there, to make the difference and bring hope into her life? giving her the happiness she deserves?

Ever thought life will be so simple like these few lines and stripes on this picture?


I wish life can be that simple, and totally not complicated as well. But often than not because of factors that will affect the outcome of situations and matters, it just ain't simple anymore.

This few days had been great I must say...

Weekend was spent hanging out till wee hours of morning.. Eh not clubbing but just hanging out with Jas and Yee watching movie and sitting down at cafe etc. Pretty exciting and it has been a month since we last went out and a very much good catching up session.

So thu night we watched Wolverine and on Fri night watched Friday the 13th. These 2 days were crazy and overall I'd only slept for 4 hrs! OMG but still worth it! Hahaz..

Fri had Men's conference, Sat was service, Pst Steve Munsey was absolutely awesome!

You should have seen his way of preaching, not just pure preaching but through drama as well. Each of the character he plays is so real and so impacting that he really brought you to the past as he acts out the story.

Imagine one person acting out multiple roles in one play, everything chereographed on his own. No wonder all the Psts are praising him and wanting him to come back. Really blew the mind away man~ Really bravo for him!!

Anyway wkend is coming, looking forward for a long wkend yet again!! *Mon's a holiday for me muahahaha yay! I'm coming!!!!

woohoo! Today's a great day..

Haha.. had great company and learning to recognise my position.

Need to have clarity of mind and be sure of where i am going.
God I need to be more disciplined and sure of what I am doing..

Super happy for one other reason as well but yea.. Shall see how it goes. :)

Till tmr! :)

thank God for the friends that's around...

You guys had been great and each of you had contributed uniquely to my growth, joy and sorrow. That's what makes you special to me as well...

Fun? No... It's extreme joy! Haha! =)

omg i haven't been blogging...

for a near good 3 weeks liao lol!!

well, shall blog later!! haha tata~