For Jing Wei

Just want to dedicate this girl that will be on her way for further studies this friday!(like so good omg)

How did i first met her? It was like one of the combined mtgs we had for the first time at Damien's place before svc started and I saw this familiar looking girl with Melina in the MRT station and first thought was.......

Anyway slowly as the days and months passed as I began to know her, the better side of her automatically reflects itself in terms of her passion to serve in choir, bringing melodies across the church during the service, standing in the gap for her fellow friends whom she regards so closely that losing one may pain her so much, and being so friendly all the time who never fails to smile for others though her day can be real bad, always so availing towards helping out in cg or her friends too.

Very often it's not about the amount of things that you do but it's really the people you serve with the passion that comes from the heart that touches people and she has done just that, which totally blew me away~~

Oh not to forget as well, this girl is a real genius towards food, especially buffets and she's a total humongous eater as well (oops, sorry but i hope this won't chase guys away!!!) and the way she studies and writes on how to eat buffets is a real mind blower that you might have thought she did a 10 yr research on just eating buffets!
Also also also!! She's a fanatic for Coke too! Which totally rocks my world coz I love people who loves coke too! Haha... I still remember the period of time when she would go on a coke fast and how this evil friend of hers always psycho her to break fast on coke and it went on working well a few times? Haha!!
Anyway, besides being coke and food buddies, she's also a very motherly and humble person too, very sacrificing and spontaneous as well..

Like how? Last Saturday in fact I couldn't join the cg for dinner and it would be the last dinner we'd have as a cg as I need to rush back to office. So I was randomly trying if she could make it for supper as I really wanted to fellowship with her, guess what? She was very on about it and I was so honoured at that time really coz' the timing was horrendously late like 11pm yea... But she still made the effort to meet up and I was so touched! Too bad I couldn't stay later because of the last train factor and I still have ministry the next day, haiz~~

I definitely wish we have more time to fellowship and learn from each other coz' I had benefited so much from you and you are such a fun person to spend time with!! *No wonder you got a BFF like Maria too*
I'll look forward to our online fellowship and being more crappy with each other but in the meantime, just know that you'll always have friends (like me) who will be there for you (though not physically at times) in spirit and in prayers k?
So gonna miss you when you are away and sorry I can't be there on Friday to see you off but my prayers will be with you always! Next time I see you is probably in 6 mths time when you come back for hols but if I got the liberty of money and time, I will want to go to Melbourne and make sure you'll fulfill your duty as the guide k? :)

Anyway, all the best really and make sure you study hard k <-- if not i'll knock ur head? Will look forward to your return really! Take care buddy! :)

wildlife

ever thought how is it like to be staying in the wild? Or at least being in a place where u dun feel comfortable and totally new at?

Here i am, being in a place where i'm new to and ppl that i'm not familiar with.

How will i transit with this change and survive out of it?

Sounds bad? I dunnno mysekf but i hope things will be better yea.. See u guys soon! I miss singapore le.. :(

choices

think everyone has heard before this about 'Life is all about choices' and through sermons we learn that we are never without choices because God won't touch the soverignity of the heart.
So it's always about u deciding what's the right thing for u yea.

There will surely be doubt and fears especiallly with making the right decisions and often it may not be the best decision. but when making a decision, it involves not just the short term but a long term consequence as well.
When in doubt, learn to believe in God for Him to guide u.

If u r reading this i hope i'll be able to help ya to make the right choices. I dun really know what's going on in ur life but if u r willing will you allow me to come in to help u make ur life better too? :)

In this case, I made my choice. :))








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hey i'm back again! Haha.. Probably after this post i may not blog till after the 7th after i return fm my reservist? Lol..

I'd been very blessed with the ppl God has placed over my life and had learnt a lot of things through the fellowships and the advise had been so great and indeed it was a revelation! Thanks so much really!
One thing was 'Leadership is not about being assigned with a tag or a position, but about ensuring things do not go wrong under his watch'. I'm not sure how cool u find it but to me it was real solid and it really served as an encouragement for me. :)

There are many things in life i need to settle and certainly within ministry life and church thank God for the progresses etc! But i believe there will be greater things for me because He is a creative and progressive God!

Even in the midst ofall the transition i'm still excited for the things to come in ALL areas of my life!! :)

Woo!!

Transformers

Woohoo! I'm so excited for this movie later!

But I'm just thinking... How has your life been transformed over the years as you continue to grow in maturity?
I'm not just talking about the transitions in life from one education level to another or proceeding to the next stage of life only, but more than that how has the changes transformed the way you view about life that shapes who you are today?

Some of us may, because of less-complete family backgrounds, grow up to be more passive towards starting a family in the future for example. Or because of a near life-and-death incident that a part of you makes you treasure and appreciate more of your loved ones?

Life is great if you are just proceeding in it alone and all about life is yourself but ever considered that it involves others as well? Our destiny and fate ties in closely with one another, be it your family members, friends or peers. Some are there to protect you and to offer the guidance and be your mentor, while some are just the passer-bys that may spice up your life during their short-stay.

Anyway just want to say treasure those that are around you because every single one contributes to who you may become in the future. :) And that's the transformation from now to the future for you.

was just being reminded of this song and was so amazed by how much impact this song brought to me. :) enjoy.




Title: Through Christ
Written by: Donna Lasit
Album: Generation Unleashed Live Worship (2008)

(verse 1)
When the darkness tries
to hide my way
Your word is the light
that guides my faith
I will trust in You (x2)

(verse 2)
When my heart is weak
& I've lost my way
I will lift up my eyes
and choose to say
I will trust in You (x2)

(chorus)
I can do all things through Christ
I can move a mountain if You
Are the strength of my life
I can do all things through Christ
When You are the strength of my life

(verse 3)
In Your presence I find
strength renewed
I find courage to stand
& a hope that is new
I will trust in You (x2)

(bridge)
Whatever trials come my way
I will worship You always
Forever trust in Your unfailing love

Whenever doubt and fear press in
I still hear Your voice within
Forever trust in Your unfailing love

been sometime since i last blogged.. :)


recently i'd been trying to define what's the season i'm going through right now and manage to come up with such:

1. learning to take the lead and influence (with a clear direction and the right one too!)
2. taking careful steps and not to take things for granted.
3. build on my relationships with people and family.

this is by far what is the most important right now and of course there are other things though. seriously speaking i need to find back the 'C' ness and abandoning the laziness within me... One quality of a 'C' person is actually paying attention to details and following through till the end. Thank God somehow that He will just pinpoint me to different areas that requires my attention, no matter how small or how big it is and the capacity to resolve them.

I'm quite honoured and glad at how things are progressing for me in ministry and logistics but as what Phoebe had mentioned before, life's also about impacting people's lives as well. So it sort of reminded me of why I am in this ministry in the first place. People.
And more importantly, what I am anchored to that no matter how big the storms are on the surface with bad things happening to me, I am still hanging on and very happy to say it's really the ministry and the relationships I have within that keeps me going. Of course at the very end there's still the love of God and all.

Expecting for something to happen by end of FOP this year. So will see how it goes. :)

toodles.


A picture speaks more than a thousand words.

yup, sometimes what's being said won't help at the last min...

but what is the true meaning of serving?

doesn't it ultimately means serving God, ensuring all things had been done to the best in all aspects? more often it's the people that's a concern because he or she is the one to determine the priorities but bearing in mind that the primary focus is still primary and not secondary.

yup perhaps it's being me that i want to ensure all things are fine in the Logistics department and that the ops will not jeopardise the whole svc and if possible i will want to see to it.

you asked me before if it was possible to get someone else to do it. probably it's me not able to let go.

i just need to learn to let go. whatever happens at the end i'll learn to accept it. it's still not about me at the end. i dun need to prove to myself, anyone or to anything. yup.

had a revelation just 2 days ago:
"Never be limited to where you are, think out of the box, make things happen."

this came by when I was talking with a lecturer and she had asked if it was possible to arrange for an excursion for her class the next day. Administration wise it was not very possible because of it being last minute and the cost may be beared by the office. More importantly, I wasn't sure how to go about doing it. So in the end the answer was a 'no'.
But at the end of the day after much discussion between my boss and the lecturer, arrangements were made for the participants to attend the excursion. Things were made real, just like that.

So in the end, it's just the effort i was willing to put in to make it happen? I knew something could have been done but i resisted that.

sometimes i wonder... what does it take for one to be a good friend to the other?

what's the right step to take really? I just wonder reaally...

perhaps whatever you give may not be reciprocated back to you in the same or different measure, and often nothing comes back to you and you feel that whatever you had done has gone down to waste?

always so envious about others having their own clique, own close friends and even BFFs..

just sth random..

yay!!

Heading of CHC KL for svc tmr! Haha happy!!

:)

P.S. Happy Birthday Shirley! :)

Counting down to mine in ? days? :S

very often it's not about the end-destination, but the journey itself.

and what makes the journey so exciting and valuable, it's the people that walks with you in the journey. =)

cheers!

maybe you can say that sometimes i worry too much, or i serve or being involved too much..

maybe i am..

yup there will be someone who may be there to make sure things are gg on fine..

but what if, i can make a difference when I'm there? or i am that someone though not all the time?

you never knows how God works, only He knows, prob as well He had meant you to be there?

last weekend was a chiong period for me.. hahaz..

SOS CWBS was great, had 2 revelations, one being a leader you cannot be spiritually dry and being one means you got to pray more, constantly receiving from God so that you can lead your people by feeding them as well. Which led to the second revelation about discipleship is all about feeding as well. *not physical feeding but being a channel for them to connect to God as well*

Saw Melina's blog 2 days ago and she was mentioning "By serving, am I missing out on more things as compared to if I hadn't served?" This question came to me many times, both in thoughts and in person from others.
What actually is serving? What makes someone serve? And probably what does it take for someone to serve?

My own definition? Serving involves a sacrifice, be it time or people, on personal expense sometimes. A good example may be some extra time needs to be taken to plan and prepare sermon or do lyrics for cgm.
Serving in a ministry is not just about taking the extra time to serve, but is why you are serving. Everyone can serve in a CG all the way to being a CGL but why are there people serving in ministries like usher, TV etc? Coz God from the beginning has given each of us a talent, unique to each of us that enables us to serve in diff areas.
Serving = meeting the needs of people, the organisation as well.
Of course I'm not totally into serving all the way and hence lacking out on the time needed to spend with our loved ones and family coz simply too much serving is unhealthy. That's why wherever you are in, cg or ministry, we got to be human-focused and not just ministry-focused as well. One way is to have good relationships with the people such that ministry = family to you as well. Hence striking a balanace is very important.

Whether you find losing more when you are serving depends solely on the purpose of your service onto others and your attitude towards it.
If you are all for serving for material reasons, very soon you may just burn out and when you start losing control all else will fail.
If your attitude is bad, rest assured whatever you do, it will be ineffective.
So it's always important to put God in the centre of our life and ministry as well coz He alone is able to plan the route for us and all we have to do is to go ahead in faith and with boldness.
Seriously, ministry is not for the weak-hearted. (took that from maria's blog haha)

In short, all's not about serving but really is the human heart that perceives the service.

=)