Hey.. Just came back from dinner at Sketches with some of my Navy pals.. haha.. Attendance turned up pretty well coz' I was expecting about 8 ook vyt ebded yo 13 came! Haha..
Anyway had started the day with waking up at 10am today and it's really a blessing to be doing so. Hadn't been doing that in months or even a year? Haha... So just took my time to prepare myself for PM and yeap... Talked to Eugene and Karen today... Thanks for the talk and it really made me felt a lot better with the concerns you guys have for me. =) Well, I'm with left with having to talk to Yew Weng now. Shall call him during the week though..
Did Stage 1 and generally it was alright and I love how Pst Ming had conducted the PM. Different from yesterday's coz' it's more of a personal touch from God today rather than the usual PM of intensifying praying. God's presence was so tangible especially at the front but I really have to be more sensitive to Him. And more responsive too.
So after PM went to hang out with Tze Hwa, Nicole, Michelle, Chang Yan and Jeremy for LATE lunch at Bedok when Sophia joined us. Ha.. Good fellowship in any case and anyway, kind of lazy to type what happened after.
But today was really a day of enjoyment, hanging out with frenz and doing things my way.. yeap. Tomorrow shall be a brand new day and wednesday I'm gone to the Malacca Straits and will be back n Friday! Haha =)
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
It's Friday!! Last weekday of the week and finally I get to join my CG for sat service after 4 weeks of not joining them! Must had missed out so much fun not being there for that period of time. Pray things will go on well and yea..
Somehow, because of the recent incidents, I began to really slow down, take a step back, look at things around and learn to evaluate upon myself in what I do now.. Least I wasn't like last time when I would just hit on things to do, being so involved in ministry or things I like without thinking or prioritising.
There are times when I did consider taking a break from ministry, close frenz from cg and CGLs asking me to do so. They had seen how involved I was for the ministry, how much time can be sacrificed and forsaking/losing other things that's more important to me as a result. And gradually because of the commitment, begin to see myself falling apart spiritually and physically. I began to lose sight of God and all I saw was being wanting to serve, serve and serve. Though there were other aims like wanting to impact people, being a good usher, striving to be excellent in my work, they were not God-based anymore. It was all for my own benefits without God in the picture.
Don't get me wrong. Being committed to something is good. But being over committed degrades a person, after all there's a certain limit one can go through. And it drags you away from your goals, drifting you away from God, without you realising it until something bad hits you.
Anyone that knows me, knows that I love to serve, loves to usher. And it's a form of sacrifice in your service to others because it brings you out of the comfort zone of self into serving others. And this form of sacrifice is good because it humbles you and stretches your capacity and productivity. But this sacrifice will turn stale or if not stagnant because you no longer find yourself effective, and you start to be arrogant and often throw your weight around. Funny to say but it's true.
Anyway, I got to learn when to take a break, when to move on. Even machineries need to 'rest' to maximise their lifespans and performances. Haha... How true really. If not I'm going to end up like the water in the cup being stagnant because I had reached the maximum. I have to move on to a cup with larger capacity so that I can be filled even more!
Wow, what a revelation really. =) Thanks God. Hehe...
Somehow, because of the recent incidents, I began to really slow down, take a step back, look at things around and learn to evaluate upon myself in what I do now.. Least I wasn't like last time when I would just hit on things to do, being so involved in ministry or things I like without thinking or prioritising.
There are times when I did consider taking a break from ministry, close frenz from cg and CGLs asking me to do so. They had seen how involved I was for the ministry, how much time can be sacrificed and forsaking/losing other things that's more important to me as a result. And gradually because of the commitment, begin to see myself falling apart spiritually and physically. I began to lose sight of God and all I saw was being wanting to serve, serve and serve. Though there were other aims like wanting to impact people, being a good usher, striving to be excellent in my work, they were not God-based anymore. It was all for my own benefits without God in the picture.
Don't get me wrong. Being committed to something is good. But being over committed degrades a person, after all there's a certain limit one can go through. And it drags you away from your goals, drifting you away from God, without you realising it until something bad hits you.
Anyone that knows me, knows that I love to serve, loves to usher. And it's a form of sacrifice in your service to others because it brings you out of the comfort zone of self into serving others. And this form of sacrifice is good because it humbles you and stretches your capacity and productivity. But this sacrifice will turn stale or if not stagnant because you no longer find yourself effective, and you start to be arrogant and often throw your weight around. Funny to say but it's true.
Anyway, I got to learn when to take a break, when to move on. Even machineries need to 'rest' to maximise their lifespans and performances. Haha... How true really. If not I'm going to end up like the water in the cup being stagnant because I had reached the maximum. I have to move on to a cup with larger capacity so that I can be filled even more!
Wow, what a revelation really. =) Thanks God. Hehe...
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
KISS > Keep It Simple Stupid
If what we say is complicated and complex we are foolish.
Great leaders speak in clear, simple, easily understood terms.
Everybody following understands exactly what is required.
The signal is clear about where we are going and where we are not.
Great leaders master the art of communication.
Successful communication is not in how much is said, but rather in the clarity. Did the listeners get it?
If they 'got it', at what level were they inspired to act?
Our people get courage from clear communication.
They get ready for war.
Say it as simply as you possibly can.
If what we say is complicated and complex we are foolish.
Great leaders speak in clear, simple, easily understood terms.
Everybody following understands exactly what is required.
The signal is clear about where we are going and where we are not.
Great leaders master the art of communication.
Successful communication is not in how much is said, but rather in the clarity. Did the listeners get it?
If they 'got it', at what level were they inspired to act?
Our people get courage from clear communication.
They get ready for war.
Say it as simply as you possibly can.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Yesh finally I get to blog! Just now my connection just refused to get me connected to Dashboard!! Rawr...
Anyway today's a good day! Haha.. Busy at work and glad that relationship with my colleagues got one level higher! Work was fruitful but still had mistakes and got faulted. Those small, little mistakes that could have avoided... Oh well, tomorrow's sailing so I pray I'll be able to perform up to expectation and not make any other silly mistakes which I had made in the past. Have to improve, improve and improve!!!! =D
Took me quite a lot of faith to talk to my mum and younger bro just now.. Bro's getting a bit out of hand staying out late in the evening to play games, skipping his CCA etc. Mum's worried with my bro's disobedience to her, dad's attitude towards her and the family and getting a job.. I didn't know I could be so calm when it comes to dealing with these issues really.
When I used to shout at my bro for being naughty, I actually could sit down and talk to him and accommodating him and yet not restricting his freedom too much. Hope he sticks to what he promises me to.
Well for mum, let's just say I used to run away from family problems but it's different today...
Glad that Holy Spirit was around and realised the importance of being home and being there for the family. God can be so timely in the things but I'm really praying for a breakthrough. Now it's only the start. Now I'm just concerned about my mum getting a job first coz' she's really getting uptight with it.
Yup glad to see the light at the end of the valley and I'm walking towards that light! Jiayou!!
Anyway today's a good day! Haha.. Busy at work and glad that relationship with my colleagues got one level higher! Work was fruitful but still had mistakes and got faulted. Those small, little mistakes that could have avoided... Oh well, tomorrow's sailing so I pray I'll be able to perform up to expectation and not make any other silly mistakes which I had made in the past. Have to improve, improve and improve!!!! =D
Took me quite a lot of faith to talk to my mum and younger bro just now.. Bro's getting a bit out of hand staying out late in the evening to play games, skipping his CCA etc. Mum's worried with my bro's disobedience to her, dad's attitude towards her and the family and getting a job.. I didn't know I could be so calm when it comes to dealing with these issues really.
When I used to shout at my bro for being naughty, I actually could sit down and talk to him and accommodating him and yet not restricting his freedom too much. Hope he sticks to what he promises me to.
Well for mum, let's just say I used to run away from family problems but it's different today...
Glad that Holy Spirit was around and realised the importance of being home and being there for the family. God can be so timely in the things but I'm really praying for a breakthrough. Now it's only the start. Now I'm just concerned about my mum getting a job first coz' she's really getting uptight with it.
Yup glad to see the light at the end of the valley and I'm walking towards that light! Jiayou!!
Monday, May 19, 2008
brand new monday... long weekend for most of us here because of vesak day holiday! Haha. One of the more fulfilling days I had today..
Booked out from camp, went home and did laundry on my jackets and bag.. Man.. Now then i do realise how DIRTY they can be because the water turned black after soaking for just 30mins. can imagine how things will be when you soak them for say, an hour or more? Think it'll come out as black as black bean soup! lol.. *gross I know haha*
Was running late to meet up with Chris for connect group outing at Safra Yishun.. Bowling!!! Well, thank God we weren't late and after meeting up with the rest, all went on to B2 foodcourt at Northpoint to eat.. (Most didnt had lunch, as usual... ) Almost broke my record of rice intake.. Took in 4 BOWLS of rice! Haha.. Was really hungry then and everyone in the table as usual was like shock with the 4 bowls of rice.. (they only expected me to eat like 3 bowls only.. Haha)..
Anyway at SAFRA Yishun.. played about 2 games and for the 1st time.. I just hit the bowls into the drains without fail... either i hit too hard or i had poor control over where I would throw the ball to. (i only know how to hit straight balls..)
It was fun overall and again with Lifang having the highest score among all! Haha..
So it was... After deciding where to go after bowling, we ended up at Bishan and watched Accuracy of Death.. nice and meaningful movie and I reallly loved it.. Dun mind watching it again! =) And today glad that the relationships between all of us got stronger especially with lin si and dz coz' they really opened up and seeing more of such ahead! Haha. Too bad Yi Wei and Geraldine ain't around today..
It came onto my mind today, of how do you keep everyone in the conversation or involved in the things especially in group outings like today? Although there are bound to be people being let out, how do we bring that down to the minimum? I can be there to talk, getting them involved but ultimately, I can't do it alone... But one thing I like about HS is that He will always be around to make sure gaps are filled and in the end, everyone takes home something and will always look forward to such events again. =)
Booked out from camp, went home and did laundry on my jackets and bag.. Man.. Now then i do realise how DIRTY they can be because the water turned black after soaking for just 30mins. can imagine how things will be when you soak them for say, an hour or more? Think it'll come out as black as black bean soup! lol.. *gross I know haha*
Was running late to meet up with Chris for connect group outing at Safra Yishun.. Bowling!!! Well, thank God we weren't late and after meeting up with the rest, all went on to B2 foodcourt at Northpoint to eat.. (Most didnt had lunch, as usual... ) Almost broke my record of rice intake.. Took in 4 BOWLS of rice! Haha.. Was really hungry then and everyone in the table as usual was like shock with the 4 bowls of rice.. (they only expected me to eat like 3 bowls only.. Haha)..
Anyway at SAFRA Yishun.. played about 2 games and for the 1st time.. I just hit the bowls into the drains without fail... either i hit too hard or i had poor control over where I would throw the ball to. (i only know how to hit straight balls..)
It was fun overall and again with Lifang having the highest score among all! Haha..
So it was... After deciding where to go after bowling, we ended up at Bishan and watched Accuracy of Death.. nice and meaningful movie and I reallly loved it.. Dun mind watching it again! =) And today glad that the relationships between all of us got stronger especially with lin si and dz coz' they really opened up and seeing more of such ahead! Haha. Too bad Yi Wei and Geraldine ain't around today..
It came onto my mind today, of how do you keep everyone in the conversation or involved in the things especially in group outings like today? Although there are bound to be people being let out, how do we bring that down to the minimum? I can be there to talk, getting them involved but ultimately, I can't do it alone... But one thing I like about HS is that He will always be around to make sure gaps are filled and in the end, everyone takes home something and will always look forward to such events again. =)
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Hmm, mum's still looking for a job, dad's still away from home. BF still got 1 last lap to fulfill. And I'll be away in less than 2 months.
Life still goes on with me picking up the tempo now.
Had been so distant from God and suddenly all the sensitivity towards Him had been lost. But thank God least now I'm on my way to recover what I had lost. Painful way to start all over again especially to what had happened. Learnt my lesson hard, so got to take things more seriously now. If I used to be slack, I need to know why and begin to change. Guess I gave myself too much leeway in taking too many things for granted.
Well, least I'm on the positive end now. At the same time I'm really awaiting for a miracle to happen to improve things for the better. I know things are possible and God has been so evident in my life..
Something that I came up with on letter representations of what I can improve on and i put them on my MSN:
Accountable,
Bold,
Concentration,
Details,
Excellence,
Faithfulness,
Guard,
Hospitable,
Inspiring,
Junius, that's me! =)
Life still goes on with me picking up the tempo now.
Had been so distant from God and suddenly all the sensitivity towards Him had been lost. But thank God least now I'm on my way to recover what I had lost. Painful way to start all over again especially to what had happened. Learnt my lesson hard, so got to take things more seriously now. If I used to be slack, I need to know why and begin to change. Guess I gave myself too much leeway in taking too many things for granted.
Well, least I'm on the positive end now. At the same time I'm really awaiting for a miracle to happen to improve things for the better. I know things are possible and God has been so evident in my life..
Something that I came up with on letter representations of what I can improve on and i put them on my MSN:
Accountable,
Bold,
Concentration,
Details,
Excellence,
Faithfulness,
Guard,
Hospitable,
Inspiring,
Junius, that's me! =)
Accountability is one thing I have to improve on.
Tze Hwa's right, I must learn to walk out of my shadows and be optimistic about those incidents.
Whatever mistakes made, it's in the past. It's how I learn to shape my future through my actions and attitude. Who hasn't made mistakes before right?
In any case, I need to pay attention to the Holy Spirit more carefully now and pray more than before. There's a reason why these are happening.
Thanks bro. U'd been a great help!
Tze Hwa's right, I must learn to walk out of my shadows and be optimistic about those incidents.
Whatever mistakes made, it's in the past. It's how I learn to shape my future through my actions and attitude. Who hasn't made mistakes before right?
In any case, I need to pay attention to the Holy Spirit more carefully now and pray more than before. There's a reason why these are happening.
Thanks bro. U'd been a great help!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Life's never the same again.
A bad decision made, resulting a series of chain effects of consequences. There are times when you want to find someone to share but who can you look for? And because of that you can feel so lost at times without anyone around.
Because of such moments, it causes you to think why you end up having to face it this way. Why the bad decision made in the first place. A re-look into what caused the moment, the underlying cause. And it all reflected upon the character of yourself. The pride, face, lack of courage to face what's in front of him. Suddenly you are so exposed of the other side of you.
Time to pick yourself up to have the excellence, the faithfulness, the focus on God, care for the people, servanthood. Once you had them, but those were stolen from you by the devil without you knowing. Now is the time, that you had realised what happened, for you to start all over again and rectify what was wrong.
Time is always present, but it's not always available. Once gone, it's gone. Your time may be short, do what you can to make the best out of it.
That's my revelation out of what's of me.
A bad decision made, resulting a series of chain effects of consequences. There are times when you want to find someone to share but who can you look for? And because of that you can feel so lost at times without anyone around.
Because of such moments, it causes you to think why you end up having to face it this way. Why the bad decision made in the first place. A re-look into what caused the moment, the underlying cause. And it all reflected upon the character of yourself. The pride, face, lack of courage to face what's in front of him. Suddenly you are so exposed of the other side of you.
Time to pick yourself up to have the excellence, the faithfulness, the focus on God, care for the people, servanthood. Once you had them, but those were stolen from you by the devil without you knowing. Now is the time, that you had realised what happened, for you to start all over again and rectify what was wrong.
Time is always present, but it's not always available. Once gone, it's gone. Your time may be short, do what you can to make the best out of it.
That's my revelation out of what's of me.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
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Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Yea I'm back for a very very short update..
Today had my day off so can come out sitting down at Pacific Blue Cafe at Vivocity, facing the nice scenery of Sentosa to blog! Can't get such chances often especially on weekdays. Shiok right? Haha..
Recently had been busy with Navy Day stuff, doing rehearsals etc and I'm so glad that it's over!! =) That's why I have the off today. Hehe.. Gonna watch movie later but dunno what to watch.. *oh wells*
Sunday for the 1st time did H2 duty and well, things didn't start off well since I wasn't around for the briefing and it was kind of messy in which instructions didn't pull off too well with some ushers not knowing what to do or doing extra stuff that wasn't intended to be. Well, next duty I promise myself that I'll be there (for the briefing) and making sure things will go on smoothly!! *Yes*
Anyway glad that Carrie was my H1 but can be stressful working with her at times (from past experiences) but she's a good mentor. Think I shared with Chai Huat before of how the spirit of excellence Carrie carries (kind of rhyme yea?), in the way she work and the details that she pays attention to. I'm on my way towards that too so just wait and see. haha...
Being in Hotel station means more responsibilities and challenging one self to be more proficient in the way the hall works, having an enlarged view of how the hall should be handled with ever-changing situations. It's not about just being on the ground assessing the situation but also being the vision-viewer of the hall, learning to flow with ACU / CU. =)
Looking forward to more of such challenges especially big days...
Anyway after duty was put in charge of recycling (yet again). A bit challenging this time coz got to help stand in for Nat as logistics while she was away (almost fainted) and a funny incident..
Got a group of ushers (from 3S1 i think) that was really 'unique."
Why so? Well because during recycling their table was quick to clear the bulletins and seeing that other tables were slower and had alot of bulletins to clear, I transferred some to the 'fast' table and in the midst of doing so, I got screamed at (yes, practically screamed at!) and one scream gets more high pitched than the other as I add on more bulletins to their table to even out the load.
And dunno why along the way, they got so 'stressed' till they started to sing a praise song. SO funny lA!!
Everyone outside logistics just gave weird looks when they started singing. LOL.
That's for me on Sunday..
Life's always about ups and downs. Up to test how stable you will be when you are at your best, down to determine how perservered you are to climb out of your down moments. Each to strengthen your character in all ways...
Shared with Qizhi just on Friday about the upsets in my family... How my dad left home for another person, how my mum is looking for a job now because of certain reasons and my bro still schooling... All these came in as very harsh moments but I didn't really broke down till just recently. Very much, too much to bear but God has told that I am to stand up as the Man in the family to be the bridge for the many gaps. Sound easy to do because of the few words? Well not easy but I believe I'm going to come through
In the midst of these... A lot of breaking downs, tearing down of my exterior, reflecting my interior and reconstruction of the new-me like God at the end of the day.
I'm walking into my valley right now... But I'm going to EMERGE VICTORIOUS because God's with me. =)
Today had my day off so can come out sitting down at Pacific Blue Cafe at Vivocity, facing the nice scenery of Sentosa to blog! Can't get such chances often especially on weekdays. Shiok right? Haha..
Recently had been busy with Navy Day stuff, doing rehearsals etc and I'm so glad that it's over!! =) That's why I have the off today. Hehe.. Gonna watch movie later but dunno what to watch.. *oh wells*
Sunday for the 1st time did H2 duty and well, things didn't start off well since I wasn't around for the briefing and it was kind of messy in which instructions didn't pull off too well with some ushers not knowing what to do or doing extra stuff that wasn't intended to be. Well, next duty I promise myself that I'll be there (for the briefing) and making sure things will go on smoothly!! *Yes*
Anyway glad that Carrie was my H1 but can be stressful working with her at times (from past experiences) but she's a good mentor. Think I shared with Chai Huat before of how the spirit of excellence Carrie carries (kind of rhyme yea?), in the way she work and the details that she pays attention to. I'm on my way towards that too so just wait and see. haha...
Being in Hotel station means more responsibilities and challenging one self to be more proficient in the way the hall works, having an enlarged view of how the hall should be handled with ever-changing situations. It's not about just being on the ground assessing the situation but also being the vision-viewer of the hall, learning to flow with ACU / CU. =)
Looking forward to more of such challenges especially big days...
Anyway after duty was put in charge of recycling (yet again). A bit challenging this time coz got to help stand in for Nat as logistics while she was away (almost fainted) and a funny incident..
Got a group of ushers (from 3S1 i think) that was really 'unique."
Why so? Well because during recycling their table was quick to clear the bulletins and seeing that other tables were slower and had alot of bulletins to clear, I transferred some to the 'fast' table and in the midst of doing so, I got screamed at (yes, practically screamed at!) and one scream gets more high pitched than the other as I add on more bulletins to their table to even out the load.
And dunno why along the way, they got so 'stressed' till they started to sing a praise song. SO funny lA!!
Everyone outside logistics just gave weird looks when they started singing. LOL.
That's for me on Sunday..
Life's always about ups and downs. Up to test how stable you will be when you are at your best, down to determine how perservered you are to climb out of your down moments. Each to strengthen your character in all ways...
Shared with Qizhi just on Friday about the upsets in my family... How my dad left home for another person, how my mum is looking for a job now because of certain reasons and my bro still schooling... All these came in as very harsh moments but I didn't really broke down till just recently. Very much, too much to bear but God has told that I am to stand up as the Man in the family to be the bridge for the many gaps. Sound easy to do because of the few words? Well not easy but I believe I'm going to come through
In the midst of these... A lot of breaking downs, tearing down of my exterior, reflecting my interior and reconstruction of the new-me like God at the end of the day.
I'm walking into my valley right now... But I'm going to EMERGE VICTORIOUS because God's with me. =)
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