Whenever you wake up, ever asked yourself how you want this day to be shaped? What do you want to achieve in this day itself? What dreams will I have today?


Haha I've always been thinking how life will have been if I'm without dreams and goals, without something to look forward to everyday. Perhaps dry, without a direction so will be at a loss as to what to do at times?
Thank God really that there are always things I want to go for, everyday. That He had given me dreams, talents and exposing me to areas where i can use my skill to benefit others.

So what is this dream I'm talking about? To be involved in social work, helping the less fortunate especially families to re-build their homes and to give the young a better future. Making a difference in their lives as well.

Since young I had always been associated to be self centered and basically, I don't know how to share. If my brother needs anything I won't relent and what is mine will be mine. Selfish? Yup absolutely.


After graduation from secondary school and into polytechnic, I was being exposed real-time to what we call voluntary work or community services. A group of 5 of us set up a club called NP Soleil which aims at helping the residents of Red Cross Home for the Disabled under Singapore Red Cross Association. What we did was to organise monthly visits to the Home, with many different activities related to festive seasons etc.
I still remember one of the bigger projects we had was to bring the residents out in SBS buses to Orchard Road during Christmas to view the lightings and all. Absolute wow with what we could do and I could always remember the smiles on the faces of the residents back then. The students and lecturers themselves too had the fun and through this I found the joy to help people with needs to be met.


Anyway time in NP was short but was experiential. Thank God for the oppurtunity to be helping out in volunteer work out of school and that's when I got to know CHCSA and Vic aka my CGL is one of the social workers there. So can imagine the number of activities I could be involved in, even till this day!! =)

Being there, exposed to me to greater areas of serving and the projects can be so diverse, from painting one-room flats to workshops at schools, to camps and projects aim at changing lives through books etc. And groups that I had came across with range from ex-inmates, youths, elderlys and families in need.

It is through all these that I realise I want to reach out to these groups of people to make a positive difference in their lives. God has also through all these events, taught me that people are the key, not the SOPs or the technical items of the event. Just like how a country values its people as the main resource.
That is also why right now I'm planning to take up Psychology degree with UB in SIM in August and so far I had people affirming that I'm actually on the right track so thank God for this. =)

I'm very excited about realising this dream of mine and as long as people is my passion and with God in it, I'll have a great future ahead! This also came by through ushering in church and event management in my current job that I can be equipped better for the future too! Amen to that!
Found it funny but I ever thought of setting up a business, a social enterprise to help me realise that dream and event management can be the thing! :P

So what is your dream?



No dream is ever too small. Dare to dream BIG!

I was taking a quick glance at my blog entries dated a yr back and suddenly a lot of memories floodback into my mind. Not realising that I had gone through them nor had any impression of them till I read them.

Things about staying in faith, interesting things that happened in everyday life, promises that I had made etc.

Thank God for archives somehow. Haha... It came to me that all those are my pasts, they serve as memories, as the foundation for me to get stronger and taller. They will not be my hinderance but stepping stones for my future. I do value the past, but the future holds more than what I had gone through in the past.
That is why I am embracing my future and letting go of the past right now...

But well easier said than done... some parts of my past, i can't seem to let go but got to try.. kind of miss her well.. and haven't seen her for some yrs now? haha.. till laters~

Thats me! Haha.. Pretty interesting. Can do this test on http://oneishy.com/personality

Personality / Temperament for Junius Solomon

Test taken on April 13th 2009

Personality: Melancholy Sanguine

Melancholy Strength:2 Weakness:12 35% Read more about Melancholy Strengths Read more about Melancholy Weaknesses Phlegmatic Strength:3 Weakness:5 20% Read more about Phlegmatic Strengths Read more about Phlegmatic Weaknesses

Sanguine Strength:9 Weakness:1 25% Read more about Sanguine Strengths Read more about Sanguine Weaknesses Choleric Strength:6 Weakness:2 20% Read more about Choleric Strengths Read more about Choleric Weaknesses

It has been a great easter wkend last fri to sun..

On the Fri and Sun I was serving I was so wowed by how God can works in the heart of people with the number of friends turning up for services and those who respond to the altar call... It came to a realisation and I did share with some close ones that ushering is no longer about filling up the seats but about the people, those serving and being served.

And being able to serve with fellow leaders and ushers totally excites me and seeing how we all grow from our mistakes and experiences, way cool!

More importantly, my bro is now saved!!! Haha!! Glad that it happens and I pray God will continue to work in his life for a greater purpose!

one revelation i have over this week was that what I do, my actions and my intentions may be perceived as something different by other people.
I do have my own reasons for doing certain things which I feel are important at that point of time and yeap in some parts of me I do need to change and sometimes I do seem imposing perhaps. Unintentionally and I'm still learning. Well that aside...

had a fun fellowship with a good fren on Sunday and certainly nice chatting with you. shared many things as well and pretty amazed how this friendship took a leap for the better over a short period of 6 mths perhaps? haha!
will look forward to more chit chatting sessions!

till laters! =)

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Amazing video about this 13 yr old Andrew Johnston in Britain's Got Talent.

How such a young boy able to rise up pursuing his dreams despite being pinned down by his peers and amazingly, amazingly portraying the that spirit through his passion and singing.

Woot back fm fellowship today~~

Today was way fuNnnnNNNnnn!!!


Let's see.. Today manage to wake up real late like close to 2pm? Since when do u find me that piggy? OopS!! Haha


Went for service and was raining cats and dogs during the train service and the weather sure was cold!!

Least when we reached expo the sun was coming out and it certainly was buzzing with people!!

Anyway was helping out in stage and sat down for the drama.. sure was great sitting in the front and enjoying the drama to the max! Haha...
Today thank God for His grace that my bro received salvation today!! And he get to shake hands with Pst Kong, Pst D and Pst Tan!! So jealous!!! Ahhhhh! hahaha!


After service went to makan.. haha fun to fellowship with the guys.. somehow i just have this gift of identifying someone that don't feel right on the inside at that moment.. very random but it does works.. and it's those very serious kind and like what most ppl say, God works in the most random ways! :P


Had a looong fellowship and now i'm here blogging again.. wow it's 12.30am le.. zzz.. oh no.. less than one day before going to work!! I want to have the monday off to slack!!!! Haiz.. Nvm..


Gonna be turning in now.. it's going to be a great day tmr!! See u guys!

by the way, I love W325!! =D

roar!!!!!!

Somehow I sense a death in me and I want to admit it so that a new resurrection power can come!

I dun want to fall back behind others, more importantly away from my Father. I want to run after Him and walk beside Him.

Psalm 23

A Psalm of David.

¹ The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
² He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
³ He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.

⁴ Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
⁶ Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD
Forever

Amen

*Yawn* Just woke up not long ago.. hee..

Today's gonna be a great day! Gonna be bringing my brother for svc later and certainly have the chance to catch the drama production on the Final Solution! Oh man can't wait for later actually!! Haha!!

Till laters~

I want to be free.

The freedom to love, worship and guide.

No constraints or limits.

I set my own limits.

Whenever I get caught in the rain, surely melancholy will catch up on me. Feeling down, out, disappointed...

How I wish I'll disappear as fast as the rain drops appear.

But rain don't last forever. There will be a time when the sun will shine through the dark sky. As the sun rays upon the land, it brings new hope and warmth into my heart.
I know a brighter day is ahead of me.

But that's not all, I know that through the rain and to when the sun shines, You have been looking out for me, making sure I am safe always. You are always there for me.

I feel secured when my hand touches yours, and the smile on your face reassures me.

I know why You are always there. Because of the love You have for me. You are always that faithful, my Abba father. I love You.

Smile!!

Keep your smile, to brighten someone else's day. (not to mention to show off your white teeth too!)

Crazy schedule this week:

Mon - only free day~~~

Tue - PM @ JW

Wed - CHCSA Cope Book mtg @ Suntec

Thu - Support @ Expo

Fri - Sun - Easter day cum harvest @ Expo!

Hopefully this sun after duty i can go out to chill with some friends. Gonna recharge myself!! =)

ok! Gonna blog a lil' while before i go back to work.. *bad sol i know but haha.. shhh*

Yesterday's PM was simply great. Really enjoyed God's presence and somehow, things were different as I felt I need to come on to another level of self diligence to seek Him even more and not depending on just PMs or church gatherings to feel His presence as well.
After PM Pastor as sharing with the church some concerns he has over the church and i thought those were pretty relevant not just to the church leadership from the cgls but also to personal life as well.
And one more thing, sitting in the front row was the best man!! Haha nth beats seating in the front and wow yesterday sure was a lot of people as well!

Suddenly it came to my realisation how things had been in my life and i should start changing my paradigm shift of thinking to something i can find a belonging and an anchor to. Definitely I haven't been functioning well in ministry since 2 months back and well, guess it was pretty obvious to some. So the shift of my mindset will come in handy and necessary if i want to move on.
Waiting for things to happen is not the same as having an expectation for that one thing to take place. One involves an action plan, another doesn't. I almost came to a stage of just leaving things as it is because my involvement is causing me to fall due to the weakness of my foundation. Just had a revelation yesterday that i should start working on the basics, strengthen my foundation and be courageous to face my mistakes and correct them.
Ultimately it's not about rising up through the ranks for the convenience of authority over others but about the trust both up and down have in you as you serve and lead. Who's the up? God and the leaders He had placed above you. The down? They are those God has placed under you to shepherd and disciple. Promotion is God-ordained and given upon recognition when you showed that you can do it. There will be little tests to test your capability and capacity to handle what's coming. Your leader may be ready to raise you up, but you have to be ready yourself to take on the challenge and the responsibilities ahead.
What constitutes the challenge and responsibilities ahead? The arenas which your leader had faced before but you are going through it on a different measure, new frontiers you will be breaking through as someone new in the rank, people looking up to you having new expectations, yourself being pushed out of the comfort zone to execute what's necessary. Most importantly it's the growth and your own determination on how you want things to happen.

When there are setbacks, emotions are bound to kick in and more often than not they are the negatives that includes sadness, disappointments, guilt (perhaps), rejected even. Very often as well, the emotions clouds the way we think and feel that it cause us to be dysfunctional. To such an extent we may let things go, drop the ball and expect things to fall from the sky. We definitely need to breakthrough from that.

God as well, likes us to manage our lives in all aspects. Be it family, friends, work, studies or finances, God has called us to be a steward in everything He gave to us. You may not be a leader in a ministry or a cell group but you are definitely a leader in your own life. You lead your life, not others. Yes parents may have a rule over you but on a final stand, you are the one to decide what you want, not your parents nor your friends.
Should one area fail due to poor stewardship, God will not bless you in that area until you rectify it. Sadly but true, however for sure God will bring you out of that situation with victory no matter what, for no matter how long it takes. Yup.

For once in a big day I'm actually not serving on all days but actually gonna spend one day with the cg and friends. Amazing but woohoo! Breakthrough! Anyway I have a switch to be in this new cg call W325 with amazing people and a leader called Phoebe! Haha! I just told myself I'm going to commit to make this cg a happening one, dunno why I did this but definitely it's going to be abreakthrough even for myself as well! Soul winning harvest season is on!!!
The new cg's dynamics are very different and i'm sure I'm looking forward to knowing more of you and enjoying the days ahead with you guys.
I may have just realised as well that I'm not a cgc as well. Or at least I doubt I'm one now. Haha..
Nothing bad or sad about it but it has been a switch of my focus as I want to lead the younger generation with a heart of serving and i want to build them up on their level to the next higher level, not by leading. Yup Pei en may be right that cgc is just a position but the position itself carries a responsibility and a name that people will look up to like ranks in the armed forces. However don't get me wrong that I'm contented to be a normal member.
Somehow God has shaped me to be 'restless if i'm not serving or doing anything at all'. If I do see something that needs to be done i'll just go ahead. It's just me! And I'm definitely more pro in doing backstage work than going upfront to lead people into the frontline of engaging people etc. So that also makes me a very technical person to a certain extent, very SOP etc. And that's something i'm trying to break from to be more creative to how to get things done.

In the area of UM, definitely it has been a calling confirmed by God. And it has been this reason why I'm putting a lot of time to serve. Not a bad thing yeap but have to watch myself also not to neglect cg.
And of course right now things had been mundane, I'm sort of lost in my direction and hence as mentioned by Karen, I need to find an anchor in the ministry, be it Logistics or to the section.
There will come a time when leaders will fail me, and I will fail others we well. As such I have to bear in mind that God should be in the center of this ministry and one i'm hanging on to is Him and not so much on the people though they are still important. Important in terms of discipleship, relationship/friendship and fellowship. Their presence will definitely make a difference in my life.
Right now as mentioned above, I need to strengthen my foundation before my breakthrough can come. Sometimes I'll just have this weird 'instincts' that my breakthrough won't come "until I've settled this", "until I do this well", "until i get that right" kind of thing. Kind of interesting and recently HS had been prompting in my heart about certain things as well and I'm glad there were some leaders that had spoken into my life about certain issues. Thanks for your presence around and nothing beats having them around me.
So what breakthrough am I talking about? I also don't know but i am able to recognise it when I'm in it that's for sure. Until then, I have to continually watch myself in my every step as a form of discipleship to my own and onto God as I deal away with the bad points that's hindering me.

Anyway think I'd typed enough... Better run off to work now. Till later!!

Toodles! =)

Last week had been a gruelling week in itself...
Somehow more of the personality and character building for myself..

Anyway enough of the negatives... Time to focus on how to build myself up and strengthen myself... Read more, pray more and have more manhood! Haha.. Weird to hear that but yea...
More wise in my financial management, more resourceful to make things happen, to be functional despite being emotional!

Looking forward in the days ahead to have an anchor, to strengthen my foundation so that I can climb higher and go further!

Thanks Karen, Yonghui and Eugene for being around to affirm and there to encourage! You guys are the best and it's good having you as my spiritual mentors!

last of all, God You rocks! =)

this morning's PM @ JW was certainly great!!

This morning was certainly lovely, had the blessing of taking Matt's car, reached church spent time with some ushers and later with God (felt totally at peace and in the flow), worshipping was great and after service had a wonderful fellowship with my zone members (current SOT students) and was went for work, on time and on the dot!

How great can one morning be? :P *Gleams*

one more day to go before this wk of PM ends~ next is in June..

oh got one project in liaise with CHCSA. we are creating sth that helps to promote the 3 main dialect groups (Hokkien, Teochew and Cantonese) to the youths in Singapore, educating on how to speak the dialects, introducing the history and cuisine involved!! And many many more!!

Interested?
Expected launch is on Mother's Day 2009 itself. More details to be given so stay tuned!!

The last week had been a roller coaster ride in terms of ups and downs in life and certainly some matters had gone on to a greater deal, which certainly pushed me to being more conscious about my environment and no longer in my own world.

Problem about though i'm good at many things but i'm not best at something because of my inability to focus, the urge of wanting to do so many things but either i have little or no results at all, failing to look at everything lies within myself and not other matters, the power of delegation and entrusting people with responsibilities for them to grow.
Many many more that I have to tackle but generally, things are still going on well and more things to handle and to balance. What's the definition of true balance?

Glad to a certain extent that I'm still hanging on but time to let certain things go for others to do, free myself up for more time on myself so that i may serve and excel more effectively to others and God Himself.

I want to rise up, I want to focus, I want to lead so to serve.
I can't be slow to move, slow to act. Must be decisive and be active and urgent yet on the right note, not under nor over. If I can wait, doesn't mean others can wait as well.

Still wanna thank the many leaders over my life that's constantly watching over me and to whom those i can learn from whenever the oppurtunity arises.

I need to break free from hiding under other ppl's coverings to be a covering for others, look at things in the bigger picture Junius SolomoN!!!!!!

*nudges himself!!!!*

What are you doing really?

I hear so many different things about you from different sources and even from yourself, that I don't know who to believe...

I don't want to intervene yet... Haiz...

Pressed down, for greater capacity.

Pressed down, to rise up higher.

Pressed down, to endure greater stress.

Pressed down, to feel the discomfort.

Pressed down, to know what is up above in a greater measure.

Pressed down, to see what is ahead.

Pressed down, for God's purpose and calling.

Another random post on another random day...

Sometimes I'm thinking what am i lacking in order to achieve where I want to be?
Promotions come because of various reasons and very often it's because you are qualified for it, that's why you have it. And even if you don't have it now doesn't mean you won't have it in the future, it's just a preparation stage for you. The only difference between you and another person is perhaps your preparation stage is longer than the rest?

If I can tell others this, why can't I accept that fact? I can be doing so well in Logis but how come nothing seem to progress for me at section or ministry level? Aren't things suppose to be on par especially if Logis is like an extended arm of UM but i'm just not progressing so well in UM? Ahhh God what's the thing you are showing to me?

I don't want to focus on the promotions anymore, I just want to serve you wholeheartedly and nothing else!!!!! Not on the negatives anymore... God lead me to where you want me to... I want to sacrifice the flesh and have the spirit living within me now!!

sometimes i just wonder... i thought i had given up on wanting to be a counter to go into oscar and will be contented to helping out outside after duty but today, i knew i had not given up totally on it after today...

i wonder what's the progression like in this transition..ahhh... God what is the plan you have for me? I'm thankful that I'm progressing so much in Logistics department and I certainly enjoy my time there but... I dunno I'm just confused.. But never mind I shall be contented with what i have.. ultimately You will be the one to provide for me!

points to note:

1. being understanding towards people especially... once he understand things he'll do it faithfully, got to explain things to him. cannot shout at him
2. understand the accountability of each life to their love ones, that safety is a concern and the overseeing should be there.
3. to provide the spiritual covering necessary, as an overseer such that i have the overall picture in mind knowing the details of each and every follow up.
4. be there to watch over and ensure things are running, understand the rationale for each move.
   
5. cannot be doing everything by myself, if so who's going to oversee me?
   
6. understand that overseeing is not just watching and giving instructions but see that things are going to fill in the gap.
   
7. learn not to discredit my leader by agreeing in what she says
8. i must learn to look at things not at the micron level only, but the reasons and rationale behind them, on a higher level. learn to think differently!!!
   

What I learn from Sun's shifting. Praise The Lord! =)

God is ever that faithful.. And indeed what you ask for will come to past because of Him..

This 2 months had been a good break, sort of like a 'replaced-back' rest from the endless weekends of Expo visits and though there were days when i just slacked totally but there were days when I had fruits!
Currently looking at starting work next Monday @ NIE for non-teaching post... Though far but through high-ways and by-ways, i'll make it happen!! So good to be working again and thank God for the answer to my prayers. In the mean time I may have to look at postponing my admission to UB to a later intake than the original May.
In the meantime, gotta take this chance to clear my BF, clear all my debts, start to have savings and in time for uni as well.
Somehow i sense i won't stop at just working at NIE these few months only but will continue on~~ heh heh..

anyway today had been great because i realise i'm stepping into an unknown arena in ministry and it just excites me. Into the area of standing in the gap, of getting things going, of setting things right.. it's just the beginning but things will be better, not definitely but infinitely!!! And also other unknown things probably..
Perhaps someone can come into the picture to guide me, I'm so afraid of stepping in and making mistakes if alone... I wish for Karen to be around but she can't give me the attention I need (she did mention I had been too overly-active seeking her attention) and have to learn to be accountable to her in other ways, now also to Ade as well... Help!!

In the meantime, I'm hungry... Need to eat.. Hahaz!

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Greater things, yet to come

Somehow after this zone transition... I sense a greater challenge coming...

A challenge to work with someone that had mentioned it's impossible to be friends, and does not want to talk to me anymore.

And of course working in a new field of young people when everyone is full of energy and definitely with new faith because of the child-like factor.
Looking forward to having a fun time tmr for a start and perhaps maybe the new changes will be announced? Or even next wkend?

I'm so going to miss my previous cg and Vic. They had impacted my life so much and ever since I took my 1st step into church, I never regretted my decision of staying and creating history with you guys because it's all worth it!
Much to the love and dedication of everyone, be it male or female, young or old. Because you guys are unique, that's what makes me unique too! =)

Yup, like I said, gonna embrace what's to come!!

Seems like I'm coming to a stage whereby I need to find my direction in ministry now. What am I to do from now on? Not that there aren't things for me to do (in fact it's quite a bit) but a clear direction. God had given me the head start in the area of Logistics Department and welfare within the section. Thank God for leaders like Eugene, Alan, Yonghui, Tze Hwa and Karen for the discipleships and trainings.
Ultimately it's not about being a CU or a ACU (thank God if it comes in the end) but really, what's the purpose of me in this ministry after God you had confirmed it's the one for me? Yup there's the conviction but I need something more, that will shape and define who I am and will be in the future. Something unique of my own to contribute to this ministry and this part of Body of Christ.

God, with you comes new faith, and thus new possibilities! =)

today had a taste of how much training i need to g through in terms of leading and having things under control, both before and after and definitely not reacting to issues when they react though it's still important to react to situations~ rawr...

one thing that i gauge for myself: is when people ask me for things to do, but i do not know what to give them, knowing that there are still things to be done makes me a poor leader...

i need to look on thee bigger pic to let the peeps have free play to lead and decide at the same time fitting the criterias! =)

Woohoo! Settled my school admission! Now gonna wait for the letter of acceptance and very soon I'm on my way back to school by May!

Manage to find out that everyday gonna have school, not like UOL or RMIT because of the modules im taking. 40 modules over 4 yrs! When I heard 40 modules i almost fainted? Haha!! Well, gonna press in more!

In case you are wondering, I'm taking up Psychology and Communication degree, it's a double major program. Will be quite in line to what I want to do in the future, a social worker! =D

Next up and the only thing left to settle is a job, that can last me through school for the 4 yrs (hopefully) and yea... My wait will not be wasted! =D

I'm seeking a greater purpose, a greater vision, a more tangible touch from You.

I want to create miracles, signs and wonders with You and through You!

You have been working in me through the shadows, I want to work with You hand in hand now. =)

You are the best!

Extracted from Ray's blog:
(background story: ray was sharing about how we are always on the losing end of us shifting from Hall 8 to Hall 1 every now and then, coz' all we asked was a place for us to worship and it's tiring to the whole organisation and all these God said:)

God said:
"Because "My church" is still not big enough, and i have yet to use "My church" to build "My house" in the marketplace.

"Every move is to remind each other to pray for the church, and His leaders that we will be able to secure the land within this year (as what Ps mentioned during vision weekend)"

"Every move is to remind us that Expo & JW are the not His best plans for us yet, and that we must never think that we have "arrived" , and think its time to relax"

"Every move, no matter how tiring, is for a purpose of growth"
(but how? i still don't understand... but God knows, and I know I can trust Him.. )

"Every move is a reflection of His faithfulness & protection"
If Israel had travelled in the deserts for years, they must have built, torn down and rebuilt the tabernacle a thousand times...
but not once did the people complained.

Why should we complain now?


Think what God said brought a greater purpose to why we are doing all these and knowing that it's something temporary to train us up for something greater, that's ultimately our own building in the marketplace!
'Wow' was what I can say~

General~~

Last weekend was totally amazing.. I'm just so amazed with myself of how much I can do and the support I have from everyone~

Let's start from Saturday, was in Expo early morning to settle some matters, went for lunch at Tamp before coming back to start with packing of Logistics. Thank God for people who were so availing like Jen, Joyce and Gordon as we started out on the packing.
We certainly had lots of fun trying to pack things into cupboards and thinking of ways how to squeeze things! Lol... By the time service ended we packed quite abit of things and everything was very much on schedule.
Had the privilege of taking Jeff's car to Yongwei's wedding and was quite in time for the matrimony and dinner. (Was sharing with someone that it's a blessing to have known Jeff of how he's so willing to teach and looking forward to build a stronger friendship with him) The dinner was fun coz of the company and thanks to Ray and Tze Hwa, some of us that were on duty the next day were forced to drink~~ Zzz.. Luckily only got forced to drink 1/2 a cup..

On Sunday, the great-faith day because we were shifting to Hall 1!!!! Did Stage 2 and though I had done the position before but I still learnt a lot of new things, thank God though.
Anyway had the help of Kenrus, Lincoln and Alan to help me with packing along with Gordon. Things were running on very well and then came more help! Peeps like Joyce, Sushan, Jeremy Kon, Karen, Feng Ming came too and events fell into place and before we knew it, around 2pm we were very much settled with most of the items. Special thanks to Tzehwa and Peixiong (Elder Chee too) for hanging around to help after oscar and Ray and Wenbin too. =)
To cut the details by 4.30pm we cleared out of Hall 8 and by 5.30pm we were out of the hall! Yay!! Thanks to everyone around for the help and cooperation and you had been real amazing! =)
Very glad that I belong to the family of Logistics and I know that if for anything, you guys will definitely lend your support to make things happen also! *Special thanks to Matt, Gaius and Cheryl who offered their help but couldnt make it at last min*
(Somehow I felt like I'm writing a thank you speech but it's true really that I really can't thank you guys enough!)

In any case after the shifting I just made my way Mandarin hotel where CHCSA had a Stakeholder's Night 2009 which was to thank the sponsers and volunteers who believed in them to make change and to touch lives. The dinner was simply breathtaking and amazing not just because of how great the event was executed but rather the people sitting in the same room, which their lives had been changed one way or the other, be it the elderlys or ex convicts. Their lives were dramatically changed because someone offered a helping hand to care to meet their needs so that they can lead a better life in the future. That was the breathtaking part.
AFter the dinner I had a fun time doing recycling (yeap you guessed it, recycling!) clearing up and packing up. The fun moments of trying to expand the suitcase to fit everything in and how you see people's face of disbelief of how we can really pack things! Haha!! Yeap!

I just felt that I want to do my part to change lives! I myself don't come from a very pleasant background especially during my growing up years and there's this conviction for myself that I want to reduce that. So I'm actually going to take up Psychology and Communication degree in SIM this year, to fulfill that dream of mine.
Along the way will plan to take up other courses on counselling etc. Of course in this field guys don't really earn alot but just going to trust God on it.
In the meantime, I'm still trusting God for a good job that can last me through university and payment of my BF and debts this year! Yeap I'm close to being jobless for 2 months and seriously, I'm so want to get a job asap!! No replies from employers yet but will continue to pray that doors are still opened for me and I'll get them!!!!! =DD

That's all folks! Till later~

Food for thought

This year is going to be the year of Holy Spirit touching our lives and we are never going to be the same again!

Here's an equation for your thinking:

Reality = Sum of your Experiences

Another to think about:

Is Experience = Your Circumstance then?

OR

Is Experience = What you think, say and do ?

the same problem keeps hunting back at me about balancing eh?

communication apparently ain't enough but i got to build upon the relationship. there's only so far i can go on both sides. wahhh oh wells..

bang~ hungry@!! (random i know sorry~~)

Exciting morning!!

Hey! Woke up this morning and I was so overwhelmed and felt God's joy totally!!
(reminded me of Wanxiu's recent post of waking up and saw a clearer vision by God) Totally amazing!!

Got calls for job recommendations and settled for 2, one is work at MOH doing a research case study on low weight babies, another admin job at somerset. Both of which have duration of at least 6 months so if I do get any it's really a blessing. Things came when I just released myself fm another commitment of mine and really thank God for everything! I don't know but I'm just so excited!!

Havent been so excitied in a long while and just so expectant for the so many things to come now!! I'm just starting to love God all over again! =D

Was walking back home just now and I was suddenly reminded of this song. Meaningful lyrics. Too bad I can't find the song link of this song, but enjoy!

Guy Sebastian - Angels Brought Me Here

It's been a long and winding journey, but i'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when i look into your eyes...

My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle...

If you could see, what i see, that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name...

My dreams came true, right here in front of you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Brought me here to be with you,
I'll be forever grateful (oh forever Faithful)
My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle...

If you could see, what i see, you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...
Yes they brought me here...
If you could feel, the tenderness i feel...
You would know, it would be clear, that angels brought me here...

Woohoo! brand new week ahead!!

Last week had been great. One full week of morning PM, zone meetings with great sermons by B.Darren, wonderful part 2 series on relationships on the needs of man and woman and a greater time @ JW!

JW getting more and more happening, especially with the Logistics family growing and so amazed with the people rising up and growing like never before. =) Haha, peeps like Yee, CK, Thomas, JJ etc. You guys had been wonderful and very honoured to have known you guys and maybe not to forget also the teachers like Yonghui and Alan!

Special dedication to the both of them anyway too!
To Yonghui:
Thanks for the endless hours of late night supper and fellowship on Fridays after CGM when you will be there to share and disciple and to sow seeds into my life! You had been there at the crucial time when I felt discouraged fm ministry and almost fell back but you caught hold of me and pushed me on.
For the times you had been praying for me in the area of family and ministry, the experiences that you shared and the insights of plan and conviction wowed me totally! Not to forget the charisma and the leadership qualities that you carry which never fails to lift people up. :)
You have been a great spiritual teacher ever since the times at Expo when i was still new to Logistics, a faithful spiritual buddy as well that always adds light to the end of the tunnel and above that a spiritual shelter that I know I can rely on in times of needs. =DD

To Alan:
My first teacher I can say. He was my MTL when I first transferred to Sun service under Eric in 3S5 then. My first impression of him was that he was very fierce, always have black face (now still do coz of his darkened skin, oops!) and not very approachable so didn't really dare to talk to him. I can't remember how the friendship got started but when it came, it was like a journey of breakthroughs for me in ministry! That's when also i got promoted to helper, entered Logistics, took a set in a main hall duty (totally unprepared then too) and because of him i started to guide and learn at the same time.
Along the way he had also imparted many things and one famous skill of his is "Throw you down to drown so to learn how to swim and SURVIVE". Remembered one duty he was my E2 while I was E1 during Joyce Meyer's service when he was there watching me running the whole show until the time when I almost couldn't it, he came into the picture but thank God fm the next duty on, I came out stronger. Haha..
Part of me was what he shaped me to be in in this day, and of course his horrendous yet enormous eating habit of adding rice and dishes in one meal!! Haha! Significant trade of the teacher but i only inherited 60 % of it <-- but scary enough liao. oops!
Thanks Alan! =DD

Somehow I'm quite blessed and greatful for being in this very special ministry and things had been so happening since I stepped into it! =) I believe more and more will come!! =DDD
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Started to give tuition for the 1st time in 4 yrs and happen to have a pri 5 kid named Kelvin. Very cute boy and simply adorable! But i notice that he likes to say 'Very easy!' in Chinese and ah, just gets very careless and will always get the wrong answers. Somehow when I saw him in my heart I was like 'I want to change this boy's life'. Wow and wow. Gonna do just that but the charges a bit low according to Jassie and Lionel on Sat. Gonna see if can re-discuss the fees, if not i think long run i suffer sia. Oops!
Got another possible tuition assignment fm a relative, heard was lower sec student but haven't call yet. Think will be calling later bah...
Tuition means increase in income!! Haha!! But thinking of the evenings been burnt! Sob but oh well! Haha!!


Pretty long post now.. gotta go! Byebye!! haha!

I just love blogging...

Wanna say Happy 23rd Birthday Jen!! (her birthday was on the 10th but i didn't have the time to blog but yea...)
We had a celebration with her on last Sunday. It was pretty happening with Jeff, Alvin, Gaius, Matt, Alex Yiu, Aaron, Peifen, Joyce and Weiwei around, at Manhatten Fish Market @ PS. My 1st visit there and it's a nice place to be in except for their uncleaned floor.. grrr...

Gave her a bouquet of flowers (purple and white tulips) and a self made card and I think she received a guess watch as a present too. Haha. Totally enjoyed the gathering and certainly hoped that she enjoyed it too. (Still remembered totally didn't sleep after Sat supper and did the card till morning before reporting to Expo for Logis. Totally zonked out by the time I was home) haha.

(So proud of the end result for the card too!)













here's a portion of it. shall ask the owner to take a full one then show on blog. lol

Anyway it was a good chillout session with the guys and got sabo-ed during the dinner but shan't say much. Haha.

Pretty good way to end the wk. =) More celebrations to come!

I awestruck, lost for words.

I'm beginning to find myself in transition whereby i'm striking a balance no more. Things are very delicate on one end while the other awaits my attention to get things done.

Initially I thought having cg and svc on sat while sun is ministry will be an ideal balance such that compromise is reduced to the minimum.

But it suddenly came as a revelation to me recently that things may have gone out of hand without me noticing it. I feel disconnected from cg and sharing of the heart which i used to have with some ain't there anymore. I just appeared to be the 'appear-only for svc and cgm' member or 'offer help when present' helper.
Whereas in ministry i helped to fulfill the needs of the department, of the service, of the leaders to a personal level but the feeling of fulfillment is no longer there. I know along the way I'm meeting the needs of others, both the ushers and the leaders but i lost the urge to have my needs met. My walk with God is also affected along the way probably?

Yup I can serve less in ministry, but does it really help solve the problem? I can start serving more in cg now, being there for the people to start with.

2 years ago things were bad enough, coz i totally missed CG on service days and most time was spent on ministry and the self awareness was not there until Vic signalled the red alarm. Perhaps then it showed that i wasn't ready for more responsibility and thus promotion never came.
This time I sense and know the difference. I'm aware of the going-ons and am not blinded by promotion. I only have the drive of wanting to do more to serve God, to make the difference in others' lives. But perhaps it's time to expand this small little capacity of mine to allow God to come in, to pay attention to both cg and ministry. The session with B.Darren just now was a start and I can see that Vic really have high expectations for me.

Yet I know ultimately, my purpose is to love God wholeheartedly, love people fervently, forming the 2 beams of the wonderful cross God had created 2000 years ago. Being a CGL or an Usher head becomes secondary now. Thanks for this revelation God. It comes in good time.
And I do know right now, there are many things waiting for me to fulfill and make it happen. :)

If I'm do called to be in UM, so be it God. ! Love you to the max!

I want a job, I need a job, I desperately want one, a good and flexible one..

God if You see this, please answer my prayers.

Thank You God. You are the best!

Hi I'm back!

Just came back fm CGC training with the zone leaders and man it was happening! Now i roughly know what a zone leader's meeting is like. Haha!

Thursday gonna have a combined adults' meeting @ Riverwalk, Sat for the youths' meeting. Happening week ahead!!!
Mon - Tuition class
Tue - Zone meeting aka CGC Training @ CHEC Bukit Merah
Wed - Tuition
Thu - Adults' meeting @ Riverwalk
Fri - Yi Wei's birthday party and late night movie with Yee and gang.
Sat - Sentosa go-kart (maybe), Youth meeting (maybe also), early to expo for warehouse packing, service <--- can't wait for pastor to preach on the 2nd part of sermon on relationships!!, fellowship with cg (maybe)
Sun - Off duty!!!, Packing cum planning for Hall 1 shift, Warehouse shifting, JW meet up at Kenrus' place.
Woot! That basically sums up the whole week ahead this week.

Sometimes seeing this kind of schedule, though may mean I'm doing alot of things, busy with this and that but somehow there seems to be a lack of personal time, a time which I can really enjoy myself.
Yeap I can be enjoying myself during ministry, hanging out with friends etc but there seems to be something else I'm looking out for.

A time when I'm free, not bounded by anything and just go all out to play without worries. And just that 1 person or 2 person company that will really make the whole difference to my world. The last time I ever have such a feeling was during polytechnic days when family was perfect, studies were alright, and nothing to worry about except to play. Friends were ever there and simply a life without worries. It seemed that life was fulfilled at its purpose.

Now things are definitely different and certainly more responsibilities on hand now. I can sense God's purpose for me more evident in my life and if it's really the case of going all out, I will want to, just for Him. Maybe then I'll have the sense of enjoyment and feeling of being free, on a whole new level.
I'm looking forward to that.

I still remembered God speaking through B.Darren, that I'm meant for greatness and for greater things to come than I am right now. I'm looking forward to that day too.

February is like a crazy month for me. Though it had just started but today's like the 6th day...

firstly I'm without a job for 5 weeks (long time for rest but ain't nice if it's too long?) anyway openings gonna come soon.. still got hope!!!!!

If I can get a good job probably I'll consider not going SOT..
Gonna pray and fast about it... Things are coming but I'm not ready to receive them yet.. or rather the door is closed, not fully prepared for them yet...

Things now are a good job, SOT, Uni admission, personal life, spiritual, finances, Arise and Build and ministry... (Can I consider relationships too? haha)

Currently opting for either NUS FASS (if i can get in prayerfully) or SIM Uni of Buffalo doing Psychology and Communication. Anyway inclusive of SOT, all 3 forms of applications ends on Feb 28th. So just have got to make a break for it but of course after praying about them before doing anything.

Ministry... coming to a dead-end somehow.. Things are going slower for me now and anything new now is definitely a challenge. But I wanna experience more. I want to quickly fulfill my BF also. I'm seriously lacking behind...

Perhaps I've not being too faithful in the things of God or too lazy and slacking too much.. Ahhhh. ok i deserve it, somehow just got to change that silly attitude of mine.

I want to live in a envionment of blessing to others, while God can use me to bless, not just words but finances. Means living in a world of financial freedom where things come and go with careful planning and wise management at the same time no wastage and generating extras. Ahhh ok.. too much random things on my mind..

In summary, GET MYSELF OUT OF MY OWN COMFORT ZONE!!!!!!! =D

Been ages since i last blogged it seemed.

CNY was normal, except for the hanging out with friends. But days after CNY hadn't been better..

Been slacking at home.. Not a good thing though the time was there to watch dramas and had ample rest.. But getting tired of getting jobless and surviving without any income...

Ahhh i need a good job, sth that can last me through university as well..

Currently I have one tuition assignment though I hasn't started on it yet, a job with Matt but no confidence that it'll work out, i dunno..
Come to think of it I"m quite demoralised.. :(

My mind is going stagnant and I'm not the usual Junius or the normal Solomon!!! I gotta buck up, move it, jump out and shake it!!! *nudges himself* *slaps himself*

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Happy Chinese 'Niu' Year everyone!!!

Hope you guys have a wonderful time spending time with your family, loved ones and TONS of ang bao collection! =)

i need to plan ahead..

i can't just rely on the short term goals that i'm able to see.

I have to go beyond to see through the eyes of faith, planning and writing down what i believe and want to have for the future.

I cannot sit down any longer and do nothing.

Now I know partly why now...

God You can be very cheeky at times... =X

Wow how time flies, it's been 20 days since the start of the new year already...

And very soon Feb's gonna come real soon too..

I had really been blessed with all the friends and the events that took place in my life are really changing me from within too!
The most recent one was the OLE Workshop/Carnival on last Thu and Fri @ Ngee Ann Sec. Seriously speaking it was a step of faith of having to interact with students whom I had never seen before and not to say bond with them to befriend them,that's something out of the norm for me.

The class of 2R5 was really a mind-blower because the class was really united and bonded together to the max really. Not to mention some but all are really unique in their own ways and they really shone themselves in the short 2 days to be talented. Greater potential that's yet to be released! =)
So the whole 2 days of event was filled with workshop and planning on 1st day and preparation for the carnival with elderly on the 2nd day. Man the whole event was a great success with the elderly enjoying themselves and students receiving something at the end of the 2 days.
Greatest reward for me is in me knowing I can actually make a difference if i'm willing to step up out my own comfort zone and been blessed to know these group of students. =)

2r5 you guys rocks to the core! =)
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I want to do many things more than what I am doing right now.
I must have the capacity to contain the growth, both within and external. As I go on from level to level I have to learn not to forget the basics and to solidify the foundation which I had built upon!
Externally how do I bring myself to a level whereby I can qualify to lead and to raise up new leaders to do more and people of greater capacity.

I simply cannot slack and cannot compromise any further! Gotta advance through the difficulties, rising up and taking ownership out of self-faithfulness! =)

Galatians 6

Bear and Share the Burdens

1 Brethren, if a man is overtaken in any trespass, you who are spiritual restore such a one in a spirit of gentleness, considering yourself lest you also be tempted. 2 Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. 3 For if anyone thinks himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself. 4 But let each one examine his own work, and then he will have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another. 5 For each one shall bear his own load.

Be Generous and Do Good

6 Let him who is taught the word share in all good things with him who teaches.
7 Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap. 8 For he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life. 9 And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. 10 Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all, especially to those who are of the household of faith.

3 weeks into being jobless! Oh no havent been jobless for so long now...

anyone outside got any jobs? Ahhhh!!!

Whole thing had been in a mess.

Praying for God's intervention into the whole situation.

Gonna pray more and fast more.

I want to rise up to the occasion.

i need a breakthrough... I'm hitting the ceiling, at my wits end now... God I need your anointing and wisdom to lead me through this valley.

Only You are the one that can do it...

Job hunting day...

I want a job that's really meant for me!!!! =X

2009!

The year which I want to:

1. Get closer and more intimate to God
   
2. Get into SOT!
3. Get into NUS Social Science majoring in Social Work (by faith for this seriously)
4. Get a job that pays well with flexible working hours!
5. Breakthrough in my family situation. (Crucial time in Feb 09)
6. Breakthrough in my finances. (to fulfill BF, clear ALL my debts)
7. Salvation for my younger bro
8. More involvement in ministry to help and improve.
9. Fulfill the calling of making ministry more family and loving starting with my section (that's why I'm doing welfare right? LOL) / (promotion not a concern, if it comes PTL then, haha)
   
10. To raise up 2 new leaders in UM by end of this year.
11. To fellowship more!!!
12. Find the right girl of my life
    

anything for CG if u ask me? No plans yet coz zone's reshuffling so yea.. will see how then. =)

Anyway i pray for all these to come to past and God, you are really the only one i can depend on now and forever. Thank You for that! =)

coming to the 7th day of the year 2009...

things had been great with the fellowships from UM and the people are always great to be with. Let's see, hanging out @ Alvin's place to countdown the NY, Karaoke session with the JW ppl, steamboat at Bugis with Logis peeps, Movie outing with leaders, makan @ T3 on Saturday, Sun slacking @ Pacific Coffee etc..

For the year of 2008, thank God for the grace He had given, for all the exposure there is in ministry and really lifting me up to the level i never thought would be possible: Asia Conference Logistics. Seriously speaking it was something done by faith because of the magnitude of the event and being the largest event yet organised by CHC. It was simply amazing. The team composition was such that I had great leaders whom I can learn from and that was really a growth period for me. My capacity was blown to the max. Well that of course was a past victory and what came along was more responsibilities. Thank God for those too.
Reshuffling of our Sun svc group came in Oct and was posted to a new team and new section. Not much changes but things were different. Had the privilege to be doing welfare for the section and was glad that things turned out well for the start and the consistancy for the last 2 months were great too.
Along with it came the fellowship with the ushers and the leaders and it's really great to be in their company and will never fail to make your day good and better. I'm glad too that I'm really giving all I am to this ministry and really want to see things work out for the ministry and for God through this ministry too.
Speaking of the leaders, thank God for them like Eugene, Adeline, Karen, Tze Hwa, Yew Weng, Yonghui, Alan, Jeremy coz thru them I really learnt a lot and under their discipleship they really brought me up to maturity and thank God I'm still growing. =)

CG for the year of 2008, had seen the addition of many new people and all the funky ones and young ones like WenJuan, Madeline, Mark and Timothy, DZ and Lin Si, Jeremy joining us back, Reynaldo etc. You can really faint when you mix all of them together but they are an amazing group of people who really shows that their youths are not meant to be despised of. =D
WHo else, peeps like Titus, Lifang, Xue, Leo, Lionel who always constantly stand in the gap and making things happen for the cg and for the leaders. You guys are simply great and the fellowship with them is always from glory to glory being crappy and fun all at the same time! Not to forget the leaders like B.Darren, Sean and Vic who also made positive impacts and significance because of their faith actions and prayers towards the CG!

2008 was also the year I finished my NS, and the transition of life from a soldier to a civilian and seeking to fulfill the many things waiting for me after NS.
Family life, relationships had their share of downturns that really hurt to the heart but thank God for bringing me through.

Thank you God! =) 2009 will be a greater yr yet!

Happy New Year everyone!!! =)

It's the arrival of the year 209 and goodbye 2008!