A beginning to an end.

It's coming to the end of the year 2008.

There were past defeats, victories, setbacks and memories in this year.

God has been god to me also. Saw my breakthrough during AC 08 and it had been a great one. Not what i had expected to be but it's something that really WOWed me still.

Anyway will be back later to blog more.. tired now and feeling sick.. haiz.. till laters~~

What am I doing???

got to buck up.. cannot be lazy... got to discipline myself..

got to set things right... got to progress.. got to breakthrough from my comfort.

i want more than what i have now!!!!!!!!!

glory all onto You!

Prioritising...

i realised i can't be with everyone at the same time and sometimes, things don't really go the way you want no matter how insistant you are.

the thing is about recognising the season and therefore knowing what's important for you to prioritise accordingly.

i'm just learning it all over again on a new level~~

Rawr!!!

P.S. just rattling at my small little space here.. =P

never a time have i experienced such greatness yet so much fustration in one season...

greatness from God because of the way I have been stretched and expanded through Him. As a result promotion came and it's really a wonderful experience and feeling.
yet at the same there's this fustration inside me wanting to do more but felt limited to do so and it had almost been a period feeling tired from the many things i'm going through right now.

thank God somehow for the favour of man wherever I go and things have been so smooth. It's really like a leap in level upon level..

Right now, i'm going to set things right. there's a greater measure of things for me to do but certain areas of my life needs to be corrected and it really takes an extensive sacrifice and out of comfort zone decision-making for that to happen. And somehow I need to do it real fast if not I'm going to miss the opportunity again.

I want to have the peace of God and the anointing to pull me through this season. Whatever that has been spoken by that one person to my life is really coming to past... I need to be ready and be prepared for it.

I want to be ready for God. =)

Wow can't believe i'm still up at 1.45am on Saturday!!

It's supposed to be sleeping time... ZZzzzZZ...

Anyway these few days I was pretty challenged in many ways, spiritually and mentally. There's always this thought in my mind of wanting to do better but question is, how?

Wednesday I had the oppurtunity of fellowshiping with Eugene on our way home especially and he shared many things which are quite true and valuable. One thing which he had mentioned and it impacted me greatly is the term 'Armour-bearer'.
That term was so resounding like a bell and it just keeps ringing in my head. Previously I was sharing about it and by definition really is to hold on and support the leadership no matter what happens. Not relenting or letting go out of own discomfort but really biting the bullet and moving on to pull through.
For whom I'm serving, I want to be their armour bearer to share the burdens and really to make things happen for them. Even if it takes the convenience out of me I'll still want to do the above and for the extra mile. I just want to be the servant and the son.
Ultimately i'm serving God and things i'm going through are for the preparation of what is to come in future.

Lessening the load of the leader, recommending ideas, being the person of details to provide the necessary. All these are some of whati'm going through but i'm sure I can rise up from it one day though being challenged many times.

After learning and applying, it's up for the next generation of leaders to be imparted with the skills such that they go from glory to glory, strength to strength. Amen! =)

Ultimately, I still thank you God and I still love you. :)

(P.S. Comes weekend, i hope everyone is ready, things are not going to be the same again :) )

The speed of getting the information across without delay.

Able to pass the impt information ASAP.

Not giving any chances for jeopardy to take place due to slow information passing.

It's all about 1st hand information.

Gonna buck up on that. LOL

December 1st... One more month before the year 2008 comes to an end. Yet this month will be the best month yet and 2009 being a better year than the other!

After AC, next event coming up is really Christmas and really can't wait for it to come.. =)

To side-track to note if I'm clinging on too much onto what I have now and not freely giving what I have and learnt to others... And really giving all that I have onto God.. Ultimately you are the one that has given me everything and all belongs to you. My dreams, visions, calling, talents.
I should come to a point whereby I shouldn't worry and fight for it. Instead just let it come to me and when it comes, I just deal with it God wants me to.

Like that people say, just go with the flow, with God. :)

Woo.. these few days after AC had been great! Days of fellowship after fellowship! =) Really blessed with the people ard me and you had nv failed to make my day more exciting than the day before! Always something to look forward to everyday! =D

Monday was out with Feng Ming and Sing Yee for makan (oh that's when I bought my new E71 too! hee) and almost wanted to get Cass out but too bad she was at movie. Ate at Just Acia in Dhoby Ghaut X'change... 1st time hanging out with them but the combi was great and it was really simply amazing! =)
Tuesday was a rest day with 12 hours of good sleep uninterrupted (most I had since AC days) and man the sabbath was good! Haha!!
Wednesday was out with Clark, Nicole and YP for Madagascar and man the movie was nice but too bad it was a bit short to really enjoy the whole geez of it. It was the 1st time hanging out with Clark and found out that there are many things which I could really learn from him etc. Shall ask him out more often in the future! =)
Thursday was out with Yvonne for dinner and catching up and after with En... Played in the arcade and it had been the longest time since i last went to play in the arcade with friends? We were playing this spot-the-difference game and there was this uncle that stood there helping us with half of what we didn't spot throughout the entire process. Are older people really good at such? haha!
Friday's more fun because we celebrated Jasmine's birthday. Many interesting things happened but shall not share much but one thing I must say was that I kana sabo-ed into giving flowers to Jas by Jo and i was like "You good lor!"... Felt kind of weird coz didn't know half the people present at the dinner (all are from JW de) but all know who am I. Pengz! Cannot stand it somehow and especially after AC, most people in ministry would have known who i am because they always come to Logistics for things during AC and would approach me for it. X_X
Had a filling dinner at Kenny Rogers though the portion was a bit small and thanks to Simon for the ride home! =)
Saturday will be finally be fellowship with CG maybe? Been missing fellowship with the guys for the last 1mth plus due to prep for AC yea..
Sunday is ushering!! Yea!! gonna be fun because I get to serve with my own section and God, I'm really looking forward to doing many miracles this week on! =)

Thanks for all the wonderful people that you have placed around me and truly I'm so blessed yet again! =)

Written by a CHEC staff:

I just want to say Big Thank You to all the ushers who have worked extremely hard during the Conference. Throughout the 5 days, my encounters with the ushers have been really pleasant. They are ever so helpful, always smiling, despite the difficult crowd at times.

There was once while I was queuing to enter the hall, when a group of upset foreign delegates were asking to be let into the hall. The door usher was a petite, young girl of not more than 18. She was pleasant yet firm, and was not daunted by the large crowd. Her gentle words of assurance and tact in handling the adults displayed much wisdom. I was really impressed.

Throughout the 5 days, more than the messages, the ushers' attitude truly impacted me. There are frequent incidences when ushers were reprimanded by members, delegates, greeters, yet they tried their best to be pleasant while getting their job done. I'm touched by the ushers, many of them are so young, their servanthood is really commendable.

We showcased many remarkable talents and programmes on stage during the Asia conference, but the church also showcased a great people with great attitude off-stage. That's why I sincerely think they are the unsung heroes. I would like to thank all of them for going the extra mile, I'm sure many echoed my sentiments."

One thing I know is that our ushers are simply amazing.
Imagine being reproached by delegates or members not being able to go in yet still being able to talk to them and comfort them in good spirit.. Not many can really do that but our ushers simply rose up to the occasion and became the shining light to make the mark difference!

Ushers, you guys rocks and I'm proud to be serving with you!!!! =D

Oh I forgot to mention something in my last post and I wanted to blog about it. Haha.

It's these 3 letters; HOG (Heart of God)

I had the honour of serving with the HOG ushers for the 5 days of AC 08 and they really wowed me with their service, their fervency wanting to impact and their determination to make things happen, even to their youngest ushers!
I'd told FM that they reminded me of the ushers in the early Expo days because that time everyone came together to serve, and fellowship was there, every single weekend of support you just make new friends. More than that, we were there for each other and you can really see the passion to serve. That's also when I was so impacted by the ministry. =)

I also had the chance to serve with some of their CUs like Yilin and Jeremy. One thing about you guys are that you are zealous in every part of you and though tired you still made things happen not only for yourself but to others too. It's really the 'Make it Happen' attitude that impressed me! You guys are solid la!! =)

Anyway, you guys are so amazing! I really can't wait to be serving with you guys again and i certainly hope that day will come real soon! (thinking of the monthly powerhouse next year and Emerge '09!!)

Asia Conference 2008.

Not just any conference but it's a gateway for God to come into Asia, stronger and better and His people being strengthened to take on the world for Christ to engage the marketplace! So cool rite?

Personally I'm blessed by this conference, in this season for the fact that God had really come true in my life, answering all the prayers and being there to be the solution provider. Amen to that!
Every nite since Tuesday reaching home early in the morning and leaving the house 3-4 hours later plus having 2-4 hours of slp a day is no joke for 6 days straight but God really pulled through for me. And still able to survive and doing well. Haha. Overall it's really a job well done for many of us and I'm glad that the whole Logistics really did excellently in supporting the whole conference and kudos to the people who really make things possible!

There were minor hiccups here and there but the Logis team really stood in the gap for each other, from the usher cupboard keys to buckets to elements and to running the whole show. Every single one had a different talent to contribute and because of the different dynamics, a form of special synergy was formed. God is really good on this part. Haha.

During the conference I was really challenged in many ways be it operations or planning or even to just talking to the people but I'm glad it was good training and i think it's paying off too. =) Imagine yourself being sharp while u r all tired and cranky. How cool can that be? And you'll be even sharper when u r all charged up andready to go!! =D Still thank God I had come onto another level of those though there were things still lacking in but gonna build on them one at a time.

AC = Point of Breakthrough!

Anyway it's breakthrough time! Next up, Christmas in 4 weeks' time! Man time really flies but that's one thing more to create a miracle for! =)

Will blog more later about AC. Stay tuned!!

Now's lunch break but shall just blog for a while... 2 days more to AC 2008! So excited for it and so glad to be receiving affirmations and all. Thanks! =) *you know who you are*

AC 2008 is gonna be the breakthrough point for me and I guess I need to put double seat-belts because the ride's gonna be breathtaking. Haha!!

Last 2 days had been crazy crazy crazy!!! AC stuff is never ending and was practically running about here and there but all was good because all things are done for a greater purpose than just serving! =)
Somehow I hope for the next 5 days I don't grow to not like to stay in Expo because for the last 2 days I stayed for more than 12 hours in Expo per day and it's scary!!! Was even crying out to Karen yesterday not to have the meeting in Expo but somewhere else! =S Ended we went to T2! Anywhere was fine as long as it's not Expo! LOL!

In this season and very recently, I'm very glad to have leaders that watches over me and really keeps me on the tab and the right track in my spiritual walk + ministry! People like Karen, Yonghui aka Shifu, Tze Hwa, Eugene, 81 yea! haha!!

Will emphasize on more about them in the next few posts but probably gonna be after AC. 5 full exciting days full of fun but definitely gonna be tired along the way but God's gonna be there so everything's possible! =)

Till laters! =)

Things had come a long way since 2 years ago. Have to make sure I do not go back to where I had fallen from...It's the test I have to overcome and pass. Got to rise up and overcome.

Pride will not come into play but humility shall be present among all. I'm going to treat people with respect and honour them, not judge nor criticise them.

I will learn to respect the timing of God and not rush and be impatient.

My time will come.

Came across these two terms today: Armour bearer and Burden bearer.

Sounds easy to do it but when you learn to bear the shield for your leader and lifting the burdens for him in action, it probably won't be. But in this season I want and I shall be that Armour bearer and the Burden bearer to whom I serve. =)

hihihi!!! It's a brand new Saturday morning and I just woke up! *Yawns* heh heh!

This weekend is pretty exciting to start with as it's the Pledging weekend later and in 18 days time, Asia Conference! Man this month of November is seriously packed with the thrills of a rollar coaster man!

Yesterday during CGM, I was wowed by the message, but the sharing that Sean did was even more 'WOW'. I think this season we are really talking about shining in the marketplace and being the salt and light. One good example in the Bible was really Daniel. Even among the Babylonians, Daniel and his 3 friends stood out and Daniel was described as 10 TIMES BETTER!!

During the 10 days of training when Daniel requested for vegetables and water while the Babylonians were given portions of King's food (tht included delicacies of all kinds).
Imagine in present day context even if you are to survive on vegetables and water alone, you'll probably be thinned and not as strong. But Daniel and his 3 friends were different such that they were stronger, smarter and their features were nicer than them. Wow it's really a move of God in the marketplace to shine for Him.

Can we be the Daniel in this present day to shine for Christ to take on the world?

I need to get things moving and going. I need to start the momentum!!

There's this immense amount of energy waiting to be released and the faster things are going, the greater that energy. That's the synergy of life. And because God is the motivation and the inspiration of all things, this synergy becomes a greater force not to be fiddled with. =)

I have this personal burden, to take things seriously and to initiate ideas + acting upon it rather than waiting for the time to be reminded then it gets done. Holy Spirit is ever-moving especially from the mundane Monday to Friday routine, constantly giving new ideas and it all depends how receptive and accepting one is towards the Holy Spirit.

Of course once it starts, how it ends totally depends on you.

Don't feel anything right now.. Even my surrounding is so quiet and dark...

Anyway today there's like so many people coming to me asking me to see doc.. haiz never been so sick before ah.. But God is still good that when the occasion arises I'm still able to focus but doubt it can last for very long.. I'll see how if really really cannot take it then I go see doc, k? (hopefully until then still able to go see doc haha!)

But there are many things to do in office and deadlines are drawing near liao!!! =( And not getting very effective at work liao...

Gtg now... toodle..

haha I'm feeling so excited right now! *done some sharing with Vic through a very loooonnnnggg email which i'm glad I'd let it out*

sorry for not updating this blog everyone! Here's some short updates..

Yesterday we went out to celebrate 81's bday. It was KTV session cum games cum fellowship. Glad that things worked out well and everyone enjoyed themselves. =) But it was a dramatic day to start with because I had mild food poisoning and I couldn't move less moving between bed and the toilet for one hour plus. Thank God after praying I felt better (still painful and weak to move) and went down for the event. Had to go and collect the cake plus other preps to do etc.
Thank God for His grace throughout the entire event that at crucial times I was able to focus in leading games and not feel the pain and all and the place was really vibrant with everyone enjoying themselves!
Yea! 2 thumbs up for the whole thing especially to Karen as she was the mastermind of everything except one thing, her own birthday celebration!! We threw in a surprise bday celebration for her but things didn't went too well at first so I was like frantic jumping up and down but glad that it was still a surprise! Haha! *Operation Surprise a success!!*

Anyway until the end of the event, the body just couldn't take it and went home early though wanted to join the rest for fellowship... Ended up sleeping for 11 hours till today before going to work. Even in the morning don't feel like going to work and to stay home to rest but God is good! Can't imagine the amount of work I have tomorrow if I didn't go today?!?!

Over the weekend was alright with attending svc on Saturday and Sunday having ministry in the morning. Sermon was good as Pst was preaching about the DNA of our church and it was really enjoyable! Sun duty was pretty alright with no cock-ups and things went smoothly and somehow don't know whether to thank God or not because after the service when the whiteboard was returned back to Logistics, one of the wheels broke! (at least it didn't broke on stage...)

Anyway Sun afternoon was Youth'Em 4: Freedom of Choice! Haha man we sure had lots of fun there, seeing Wenjuan and Jeremy rapping for the 1st time on stage but they sure did a good job! It was definitely the best event yet proudly brought to you by the young, energetic, vibrant youths of DT zone! Heh.. Oh must I say that Lionel has such good charisma leading worship on stage and John + Rallen's performance being so good that you want to have an endless list of encore performances from them? Haha!! And B.Darren was so funky with all the hip hop actions and you certainly don't see this side of him often but it's something new that we see. Rock on B.Darren!! =D

That basically sums up for the last weekend and more exciting days ahead with Building Fund in 3 days and Asia Conference in 18 days! =)

Toodles

Now still on the season of my F.O.C.U.S. haha...

Shared some things with Vic and things seem to be getting on track... prayerfully still that I'd made the right choice and definitely want to have the blessings of Vic at the same time. Somehow she still feels differently.. Hmm...

Today's been a great day and I didn't doze off in front of the com today!! Feel so proud of myself!! *winks* It's all thanks to the 13hours of sleep I had the night before, from 7.30pm till next morn 8.15am! Very piggy I know but I was simply too tired on Monday...

2 more months till end of year 2008. Are there any goals yet to be fulfilled? What I'm hoping for, will it come by this year end? It's not my key focus but somehow I still desire that I move on to that stage. Yeap...

Building fund's coming too.. Till now I haven't got a figure to pledge for in 2 weeks time but I believe it's gonna be a bigger miracle than the last 3 seasons and a miracle will take place this time again! =) Gonna start fasting and be praying more for the next 2 weeks le. Gonna be hard but gambatte!! =)

So what is it about you that you need to fulfill by this year end? =)

Man.. So fast! It's already coming to Wednesday le! =)

Can't wait for the weekends to come but in the meantime, many exciting programs coming up!!!

Tmr - BS at Riverwalk
Thu - Dinner with MC (still pending though...)
Fri - Wheel of Life @ Riverwalk (Last session, the best yet!!)
Sat - Svc + Logis re-org?
Sun - Ministry + Youth'Em (last but yet the best!!) + Shopping!!

Counting down to Asia Conference, 4 weekends from now! It's like so fast... Many things to go on, taking place and a time for growth for many of us here. Expect a great time of reaping, leveling, growing and expansion in capacity for that 5 days!! Really cannot wait for it to come!

just came back from svc today.. wow the sermon was really SOLID. talking about the 4th dimension way of thinking and visualising..

Pst also shared about how faith the size of a mustard seed (almost naked to the eye) can be used mightily to move the mountains when you speak to it or think about it~ Frankly speaking I was so blown away by it! Esp by the testimonies he shared with the above principle!

At almost the end of svc Pst asked the church to write down what we want to visualise in 5 areas of our life and most amazingly, believing God for it to happen!

1. Health - To be free from sinuses from today on!!!
2. Finance - To earn at least 3K a month. To have a 4-fig savings minimum in bank account. Lol.
3. Marriage/Family - For reconciliation of relationship in family between my parents.
4. Career - To set up social entreprise to meet the social needs of the society. (haven't come p with anything specific yet)
5. Ministry - To rise up in UM, as Chief Usher eventually, to raise up new generation of leaders willing to pick up the cross and impact the world especially the unsaved with their willingness to serve.

What's yours to take in the 4th Dimension? =)

FOCUS!

Finding
Own
Calling
Under
Stress

strangely had a thought of it when I was bathing.. so funny la..
Now need to search for own calling plus I'm stressed. This might had been a pre-warning.. Haha..

eh not sure about the stress part.. will need to find a better word to represent it probably..

Armour bearer... What does it mean to be one?

Like how David became the armour bearer of King Saul and defeated Goliath with 5 stones?

What's the definition behind it?

Ability to contain the growth.. both external and internal.. what's my capacity to own such growth?

Got a wake up call today.. No longer can I shun or ignore of what's my calling really in serving God.. Suddenly the responsibility becomes so great and somehow, I need to find my own personal revelation!

Not much time left le.. No longer can I be contented in just serving and helping out, i need to find the place where I can fully explore and release my potential to serve God the best I can..

But I'm confused somehow.. I need to get myself out of this confusion soon..

I believe I can do it.. I can!! I cannot let myself down, let alone the people who have faith in me!

It's wednesday, morning le!!

Recently bio-clock going haywire le.. been sleeping 'early' in the morning and waking up late~ sianz..

For 3 weeks in a row for 1 day each, been taking cab to work for waking up late or if not I couldn't hear the alarms! Haiz!

Anyway, have to kick this habit away man.. so not nice to be late for work though boss dun say anything.. haha...

Random blogging...

It's 1am in the morning le... Thinking of what happened today actually..

Willingness vs Balancing vs Priorities..

So interesting at times really and in this season I'm with these 3 words.... How to handle them well is really a test in itself..

I'm searching, but I know I will find it soon enough..

In the finishing line, I know You are waiting for me there, to go on another race with You..

Somehow I'm just crazy about blogging.. Somehow...

I just love God, simply. He's always there so faithfully standing by me and everything He does is in the right time and season.

God, I need more of You and definitely I know especially in this season, I cannot walk road alone without You. I had missed You once and now I'm back to where I had stopped. It's time for me to continue the journey, making the right turn this time.

My To-do list this season:

Cell group:

• Grow the cell group to 20 by end of this year.
• Integration of new friends into the cell group, to have regular attendance for at least a month.
• Lead games, share offering messages and testimonies.

Connect group:

• Integration of new friends like Yang Wei and Wanting.
• Each youth to know each other better, relationships forged.
• To do one out-of-this-world activity for the youths by end of this year.
  
• To train up 2 people to rise up. (disciple making in session!!!)
• To be there for the members whenever I can.

UM (Personal, Team and Section levels)

• Better bonding and understanding for everyone in the section.
• To train up new leaders (1 in 6 months at least) *got target liao btw*
• Make the section more family-like!
• Build up the spiritual atmosphere of the section.
• Be a TL by Jan 2009.

UM Logistics:

• Logis gathering at the end of the year.
• Logis contact list.
• Makeover of Expo Logis room!
• Logistics Inventory system set up before Asia Conference.
• Get new understudies!!! =D
  

Glad that God has been faithful and the people around me watching over me.. If not will just be going in circles.

Somehow I just set myself up into this realm called 'Calling' and so many issues came up from there. Well, sooner or later I'll need to deal with it so why not do it now? Haha.

Many of us have the potential to do great things, blessed with the talents and gifts God had placed inside of us, thus waiting for it to be released to maximum impact. And because of the unique talents and gifts, it makes each of us unique. Also creating the destiny and calling God wants us to be in.

We can decide upon what we want to do, based on what we are good at, having the best results out of what it's done by us. From there we may decide that is the 'calling' God wants us to be in. Nothing really wrong with that but is that what God want us to do in His Kingdom? Of course not everyone is called to be a cell group leader, an usher head, a pastor etc because of the unique DNA of each individual.

I'm starting to recognise that God has called us into different ministries for various reasons. One is to answer to the needs of the ministry, for others it's a training ground, a platform for something greater meant for them. And all these are decided based on what God wants you to be with the talents and gifts He had given.

Anyway now at this stage, I seriously cant help but to think where am I called to be. Many people that I had spoke to had already knew what's for them (Praise Him for that!) but well, I'm still in the midst of finding out. For me, it's either in usher or in cell group though. Not sure why I tend to struggle so much but Yonghui is right about one thing, I need a spiritual conviction to ground myself, to know my calling.
(I still remember a year ago I was very insistant of being in UM that I had neglected my CG and everything halted, therefore having to make a U-turn and now, I'm here talking about my calling. How interesting...)

Thank God too for spiritual leaders like Vic and Yonghui whom I know I can safely entrust my life to 101% of it. On Wednesday I had actually met both of them for fellowship (on seperate occasions of course..) and this topic was like the highlight of the conversation. Vic initiated with questions that got me thinking, and Yonghui seemed to be the one providing some light to the answers I need to have (complimentary partnership, haha)
Whatever the outcome may be in the end, I still want to find myself serving God and fulfilling the very thing He has for me.

As of now like what I had told Vic, I'll faithfully and willingly support her in her vision and standing in the gap with the cg and connect group, at the same time building up and to serve in usher ministry.. I'll just do what I need to do and let the rest fall into place naturally.

(P.S. God if You are reading this, I hope I'm making the right move.. if not, just let me know ya? =) )

Actually i wonder, how many ppl know about this blog especially after B.Darren helped to 'advertise' it.. haha..

This word is so thought-provoking... Son-ship...

Makes the difference between a servant serving his master and being the son of the father (master).

Servant serves the master with a service, but a son serves not only with a service but presses into the father's vision.

Sometimes it can be so tough to be a son/daughter of Jesus. But all it takes is one word: "Willingness"

Are you WILLING enough?

=)

Believing in own strength brings about great confidence and great power. Hence comes the responsibilities entrusted to you because you are also faithful in the little things. And soon after promotions will be after you, giving you access to greater things, enabling you to achieve things greater and more historical than your peers..

How cool is that?

Recently it's really the season of exploring oneself, knowing your strengths and your weaknesses, unleashing the potential and the talents that's inside of you.. Haha, knowing is not enough really. How do you use what you have to propel yourself to greater heights? That's the key..

Can't wait really for what is going to happen.. But yet at the same time, there's a small sense of struggle.. Wanting to propel forward but the fear's holding self back.. need to learn to breakthrough from there..
Many things to look for but I wish there's a system for self to keep tab on.. Do not want to lose control over my flesh but to take control with the spirit..

I'm believing in You, putting my trust in You. Though the wait is long but truly it is a test for me. I will pass this test with flying colours. Thank You for putting me through this test. =)

Yest was such a fun day..

Firstly thank God for the sabbath that i need not go down to expo for one sunday in 1+yrs!! So took the chance to sleep till 12pm! So cool la! Anyway, it was a fruitful rest and I don't regret getting myself to Expo and probably do nothing.. Lol.. But realised something, there aren't nice TV shows on Sunday morning/afternoons, even cartoons! Heh..

Secondly was the Youth'Em event proudly organised by the exciting youths of DT zone!! It was such a great success and if you were there, you get to see ppl unleashing potential and showing others what they are really capable of with their talents! It was really a wow! And the disciples, one of them was Kelvin.. Man he was so humble!! Was supposed to help out with ushering for the event and he was the ic.. Didn't know much about ushering but yet he's so willing to learn and from there took the lead.. It was a powerful testimony in itself that when you are to lead, you truly take ownership! Wanna become someone like that man..

Anyway after the event finally had the chance to fellowship with Karen le! Lol.. 81 and Shuzhen was around also.. It was a good fellowship no matter what.. Met them up at Swensons, ate the ice cream.. not that fantastic but it was still alrite la.. dun really ask for much though.. haha.. (was actually quite honoured to fellowship with them coz you don;t really get such chances.. heh)

that;s all well.. can;t ask for more.. a well rested sunday with great company for fellowship! =D

finally, has gotten over fm last week's mood swings i would say but come to think of it, quite scary to recall what has happened because it really seemed like i was in a bottomless pit all helpless.. but thanks to some peeps that helped, to the wee hours when the hp will just go dead on batt. haha

so glad that things are progressing, be it ministry or personal life.. just had a new revelation on finances, esp after the last session on Wheel of Life on the topic 'Finances'. Quite powerful, that when you plan your budget, budget a sum of money solely to GIVE AWAY. Shocking? Coz usually we always plan our budget for our own management and use but what does giving away money got to do with budgeting?
Principle's quite simple.. What you reap is what you sow. So as you start to give more, you will start to gain more just like harvesting.. The lesser seeds you spread across the field, the lesser you get in return and vice versa..
And one key to leading a debt free life is to know your priorties.. Is your money used to getting the wants and not on other impt things like settling bills or being quick to return ppl money? Haha.. just some things to think about..

as the past proceeds on like the wind, so are the new springing forth with surprises..

no matter what happens, continue to look forward.

The light is shining in the midst of darkness, where the source of light is the hope and key to our future.

Move on, march on, press on.

Stand Strong! Be bold!

If you dare to move, you dare to dream!

the name Solomon... What does it mean to me?

I'm just so troubled with what's going on... mixed feelings perhaps... haiz..

for once looking at the allocation... I don't have to the heart to serve... haiz.

in the recent weeks i saw many people rising up in their own spiritual life, and promotions came for them and was really happy for them. People like Vann, Elson and Lionel under B.Darren's discipleship, Bernard getting promoted to TL, Jeremy creating a miracle for himself coming for the youth outreach, diao zheng growing in maturity, Charles bringing so many friends and gotten integrated into the CG etc etc etc..
Can say God's really amazing..

Prob the same question that I have for myself now as I used to ask: "What's my calling and what exactly am I doing right now?"
Things had been the same for me since the beginning of NS.. helping out in ministry and in cg.. being involved in things or events here and there.. but what are the things that's really keeping me to what I'm doing right now? I mean I'm not a zombie / robot that's doing things so aimlessly and without a purpose.. It's so fustrating to do things that way really..
MSN nick right now is 'So Lost..' Kind of explain how things are for me right now..
True in a way that I'm looking forward to promotions and do know that promotion comes from God and no one else.. But I can''t seem to see work that in my life to seek promotion because of God and not because of myself. Been struggling since and I'm still struggling now..

In a crossroad right now where I do not know where to go.. I thought I knew what I wanted but suddenly i have this fear of going for them and i'm not sure if that's what I really want. So funny somehow.. I'm just waiting for each day to pass and each day gets more and more meaningless..

Being effective is no longer what I can do now.. I can no longer judge if what I'm doing is worthwhile.. Simply something simple like whether I should help someone out as a question to myself, I can't even answer! I can't imagine if i'm assigned to do bigger things will i be able to do it or sustain the results?

True enough I'm dependable to most people and if they come to me for solutions I can give them to my best capability. But I realised those are all based on my past credits and achievements, and I'm not creating new ones! How can I expect myself to lead when I'm not achieving something myself now or to show that I can lead?

Used to do this test to determine what's my love language and lo and behold... It's words of affirmation... How practical was I then? Haa.. Then I would remember the days in the past when I would try to get attention from my friends and that's when my ego would take over me to boast about my past achievements so that I can get affirmed by someone.. How childish... *feel like slapping myself somehow*

So many questions flooding through my mind right now.. Whether I can make things happen for myself? Be it finances, family, cg, ministry, personal and spiritual life. even my emotions... Very negative I know but... Well...

I can't understand why I'm still hanging onto what I have now which I should have gave up on because of the so many things I rattled earlier.. So funny, on the opposite table I'm hearing the people talking about vision.. Is it true that I'd lost my vision already?

Fustrations after fustrations.. Agony after agony... I do not want to live a life of me forgetting what I went through the night before after a night's sleep and a day takes place without me learning anything from yesterday.. It just meant I wasted 24hrs of my life yesterday! It's so tiring also.. Seeking for things that I thought wouldn't happen on my anymore because I felt myself being stagnant for too long..

I hope things won't come to a point whereby I don't find EVERYTHING meaningless and I just leave church.. Just like what in Getting Started we talk about being spiritually and emotionally dead = walking zombie..

Man can be very funny.. Mixing positivity and negativity altogether.. Anyone cares to help this poor soul here? *HELP* I seriously need someone to guide and disciple me.. Can say I was quite envious like Nat, she got like Eugene, Richie or Roger to guide her, the 12 having Bro Alex and Xue with Vic around? Or is it I'm not seeking hard enough to wanting to be discipled, to be guided?
One thing that I learnt in the navy is that we can factor many reasons in for the so many things that happened but usually, the problem is none other than ourselves being in that situation, DOING NOTHING...

I just don't like this feeling......

Yonghui once told me I already have the skills to become a TL.. The factor that's lacking is me.. Transferring to Hwee Tze's team make me realise that leader is not about works, it's about people even in ministry. And Pst Tan's last sermon affirmed that too.. But I can't seem to make it happen..

Why's my life turning this way???

ahh.. so lost..

now i'm just thinking if i'm the right person for the job or am i really up to it? How can i be effective if i wanna influence others?

ahhh.. i need more finances!! sigh...

This week passed by pretty fast..

Fri went back to Changi for my pink IC and that indicates the end of my NS life! So it's Mr J from now on (no rank attached till reservist, haha).

Had a fun time on fri with my dept for dinner at MOF @ Bugis, and later with the CG at Harry's @ Dempsey Hill. Quite a nice place to hang out and chill but ended up being home at like 3am in the morning and having to wake up early the next day for YW's wedding.

Came sat which was my SL, Yew Weng's big day! Haha. So happy for him that he had found his love to spend the rest of his life with. All the best in a blissful marriage and may you have many lil YW's and Rachels soon! =) (suddenly realised that week itself the 'Rachels' are married. Haha)
Well, soon after went for svc and managed to cleared quite abit for my UM2 cupboard on after svc but by the time everything finished, it was time for supper so went to the airport for makan. As usual for Sats airport is usually crowded with ppl but thank God managed to find seats. Hehe.. Managed to catch the last bus home from airport with Jen and Bao ling..

Sun was communion duty. Ended up being late for duty (guilty) since a long long time.. Was famished by the time sermon started but thank God Jen bought breakfast! =) Thanks haha..
So after svc contiuned with UM2 cupboard (yet again..). Got comments from Timo saying I own the UM2 cupboard, as if the cupboard is mine liao.. I was so -.-||| when I heard that..
Continued all the way till 7pm when grp 4 finished their meeting. Had a sense of achievement then coz I finished UM1, UM2, UM3 inventories, tumbler counts plus majority of the bucket count! =) *finally can hand up some work to boss this Sat*

So for Mon it was less exciting coz it was like 1st day of work but glad that I'd made new frenz and they were all very nice and helpful to me esp if i got many, many questions to ask! (I'm a bit slow in learning somehow haha) Getting the hang of it though so yea.. More to go.. Heh..

Oh ya, Bro's just got discharged from hospital due to a fractured leg. It seemed quite bad so if you can, do pray for my bro k? thankie! =)

That's all for fast updates. Will update again soon! =)

What exactly is service onto others?

How would you define service onto others? (personal definition)?

Do you have any agenda when it comes you serving others, inclusive of those either lower or higher statures than yourself?

What is the reason why I'm serving and not being served?

Do I want/expect any returns out of my service onto others?

What makes a good servant and the qualities behind a good servant?

How can I improve on myself in terms of my service onto others and in what way benefits me?

Last of all, who am I serving ultimately? God or man?



I'm running through this questions in my mind as it sets me thinking on why I want to serve as an usher, in CG when I can sit down and wait for this to happen. Recently there had been questions asked by people I know, why did I do this in the 1st place, why am I doing this etc?

One thing I know is that I'm serving out of passion and not out of obligation. The difference is the passion gives you the energy and stamina to go far while being obliged simply don't last long. And with the passion, there's the desire to excel in the job and not slacken.

And the reason why I'm still in ministry now is partly because of the people whom I'm serving, towards and with. The love for God and love for people, the 2 elements that drives and changes things. For myself I find it rewarding when people smiles back in appreciation of what you'd done for them, or a simple 'Thank You' from them does make a difference too.
And the people whom I'm serving with, be it ushers, leaders or members, they are an amazing group of people and regardless of their background or their weaknesses, each have inside them a special talent that no devil can rob away from and that talent has to be maximised to it's fullest potential.

Well, that's about all for now i think.. More things to crap on tomorrow! What's in for this weekend let's see.. Alex's birthday celebration after Wheel of Life, Weng's wedding on Sat afternoon at Merchant Court and Sun communion! Haha.. =)

New phase of life starting very soon, in 10 hrs time when I get to see my pink IC once again. Haha..

Yea, later going for interview at ESPN working as data entry personnel.. Pay's pretty good I must say. Least for a temp job... So hoping I can get this job least to tide over this current 'crisis' period. Haha..

Things are certainly getting better by the day because God seems more evident in my life through the small little things everyday.

Asia Conference is coming and I really, really can't wait for it to happen!

There are so many things I'll be involved in and it's definitely a great chance of learning and in terms of expanding my capacity too!

Asia Conference here i come! =)

It's Thu! 24 hours more to ORD!! Hee!

Just came back fm watching Wall.E at PS GV! Man was the movie good! Pretty entertaining and engaging. Had a few 'findings' after watching this movie.

1. At the beginning of the movie the earth was portrayed as cities polluted by rubbish and were piling up very badly (skycrapers of compressed rubbish) and the sky was yellow instead of blue.(pretty hard to imagine eh?)
   
2. In the show humans that were living in space (btw Earth was 'abandoned' because it was too badly polluted and not suitable for human living, 700 yrs ago..) grew to be so lazy that everywhere they go they travelled on mobile chairs that served their every need including communications and food orders (even change of clothes too!)
3. The humans were too occupied with what they have that they didn't know what existed around them lest the shopping malls.. (one during the movie commented that she never knew the spaceship had a swimming pool!)
   

Evaluation fm these pts were that:

1. Now our earth is quite polluted with all the trash we generate everyday and will one day we'll come to the state as what's portrayed in the movie when we need to move out of earth to look for another planet or environment to live in?
2. Ever wondered if we are too dependent on technology (laptops, handphones) such that we'll be totally 'crippled' or lost if we don't have them one day? It's almost like they are part of our lives because of how convenient our lives became because of them.
3. Agree that at times we take things/people around us for granted, we don't realise certain things going on that needs our attention due to certain reasons?

Anyway it was a good movie and I don't mind watching it again really! But time's a problem...

I had a good fellowship today with Vic and Chin(very interesting guy. Why? shall explain later)! Looking back, guess things really progressed since i 1st came to church knowing Vic. Last time things were very straight for me as she was the leader and I'm the member so there wasn't much interaction between us unless it's on CG matters or discipleship sessions. Now least there's this friendship going on and she had been a good leader placed over my life. Often we can crap or tease around and share things without agenda. Glad to have you as my dearest CG leader VIC! Thanks for all the things you'd done to safeguard my life and watching over it! =D

Something about Chin, he's the only person I know so far that can make me laugh and smile all the way fm the moment I'd met him. In the beginning I asked him 'What are you doing now?' as in 'What's your profession?'. So he happily said "I'm on the escalator." (we were on the escalator then) That was so cold la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And over at dinner table he was continuing to lame, to the state whereby I wanted to bang my head laughing... Well he certainly opened up my day! Lol.


Finally I had a clear idea of what do I want for myself and really no doubts about it but one thing to do now is to pray over it. God, my life is in Your hands...

I'd rejected the job in Recruit Express this afternoon.

Somehow thank God the interview today made me realised what I exactly want and the job does have a conflict of interest to what I want for myself. Anyway shan't share much for the interests of the company but yea, choice had been made.
And not to forget the people there, esp Jason and Mervin for being so helpful and nice!

Want to thank God too for more open doors today on the jobs I can take on to train myself up. Anyone out there got job lobangs inform me k? Willing to work till next yr Aug at least! =)

One last thing, I need a job!!! =S

New love: Nokia E71!! Wanna get my hands on that phone asap! Hee

Bloggy time!

Did H2 for 1st time on Sun.. Morning was bad because my briefing wasn't clear but still alrite.. Then setting up of the hall was slow too. Thank God Joseph was there to help. Anyway I need more preparation for future Hotel duties and delegation and allocation of work can be better! jiayou~~
Did attendance for the 1st time too. Thought it was easy but took a lot of time to cross check. (Poor Juan waited though she was sick but she was patient enough. =) )

Anyway after duty quickly rushed down for the Youth'Em event. It's actually a youth event organised by the YOUTHS of DT zone. How cool is that!! only managed to hear the sermon preached by B.Darren but thank God for the wonderful presence! So glad that Jeremy came too! So our whole connect grp was there as 1 full grp, 1st time! So proud of you guys man, esp Jeremy! Gonna find one day to take one grp pic, hadn't done so b4!
Somehow this connect grp is like the future for the next generation of world-shakers and history makers!
FYI the next Youth'Em event's gonna be great, on 21st Sept! Do come!

Vic and Sean popped the same question on 2 different days about me moving to youth CG. Dun mind helping out but... Shall give a miss for this haha..

Met up with Sing Yee, Mic, Jas, Gaius, CK and Jeremy for fellowship at MOF. The fellowship was great and we went to COMEX after that. Man it was crowded at the last day with all the sales going like nobody's business. Heh.

Oh yea, attended Ray's wedding yesterday too. The 'RaRa' wedding between Ray and Rachel. Congratulations and hope that you'll have many lil' Ray and Rachel's! It was good with all the funny videos and how 'bad' the brothers were treated before Ray could enter Rachel's place and the funny animation of how they met and gotten together. SO happy for them really..

that's all for now.. till later!

God is so timely today in everything.. *sometimes i wonder if He ever reads my blog lol*

Woke up, went down and the lift was there, trains came on time, buses came on time.. And it's all that I'd intended to take. Went to RecruitExpress to look for temp job but ended up getting a temp job in the same company itself. Today's interview was scary and the manager was STRAIGHT FORWARD la! Somehow can feel blades coming out from his words but he meant well with all his words.
Going down for 2nd interview tmr, hopefully I'll get the job! It's kind of funny coz' I felt a prompting in my heart to go there to look for jobs and lo and behold, surprises came after another!

God has such interesting ways to make your life fun, and to love him even more! =)

Life's getting more exciting now..

Seeing things unfold by itself, with pleasant surprises and all.

God's ever so wonderful and surprising...

Asia Conference is coming, that's when my Breakthrough comes, Capacity expands like never before, Propelling to the next level, my Life been changed.

Persevering on...

Thank God today my com is fine.. Since morning had problems starting up my computer due to 2 progs i'd downloaded yest conflicting each other. AHH! Anyway managed to fixed it without using reformatting. =)

Sun gonna do H2 with Vincent. Come to think of it, the last time I did H2 was 1 yr ago during SOT graduation.. And it was with Vincent and Karen then. Haha. Man it's Pst Casey treat this weekend too! Looking forward to this weekend really. This Sat finally can sit down with CG for svc and go for fellowship! =P Miss doing so man..

Looking forward to duty this Sun and hoping to learn new things along the way. Many things happened before but everyday is a new day with new expectations. New attitude, new expectations!

This week is like a week of slacking and relaxing for myself! haha. One more week before I say goodbye to NS and hello to pink IC! =)

Anyway the weeks so far has been amazing especially this week itself. Walking down the street and you can just feel God talking and accompanying you wherever you go. And your whole mind is just filled with the visions and dreams He has catered for you and seeing it so clear! PTL really. I can still remember Pst Phil shared once that He was sitting by the beach worshipping God and out of sudden God just came by conversing with Him for the next few hours! And that was so WOW for me!(hope to have that kind of encounters with Him..)

Will blog from happenings at the weekend first. Haha.
Went down to Expo finally after the overseas sailing and so good to see all the pals there! Haha! And it's definitely great to be in the House of God again and yeap. Guess at that pt of time I was so excited and hungry that after eating a 1 foot long bread from subway I was still hungry. Scared a few ppl with my appetite. Lol. That weekend was also the SOT Graduation weekend, and congrats to people like Joelle, Wanxiu, Jean, Wenting, Vanessa, Michelle Lim, Wendy for graduating froom SOT!
After svc was movie screening for Money No Enough 2, did Delta with Jen. Think the last time I worked with her was like last year's Emerge for Logistics. Duty was generally ok, great at the start with the flow of people and filling up of seats was easy (free seating) but attendance was a killer. The movie was great and it was real funny but couldn't watch the entire movie because of walkouts etc... sigh. Had debriefed by Renjie at the end of the event and some points were noted really. Served as a reflection for most of us anyway the best part after everything was makan @ Sakae Sushi, Changi Airport!
The fellowship was great and things went on to a new level with Mic's 'high-pitched laughter'! ha. After makan we went to sent Melvin off for his 2-week reservist training in Thailand. Hope he's doing well there though. Yeap.

Monday was more low-key with being the last day @ work and basically clearing all my stuff back home. Gonna miss the ship and its crew and all the fun we had since I got posted there. Not to forget the troubles I had created haha.

Tuesday was alright, woke up late at 11am. Sometimes I wonder how at work I wouldn't miss the alarms but when it comes to my leave days I wouldn't hear the alarms AT ALL! Bad habit but good in a way coz I wouldn't be disturbed of my sleep! =) Spent the afternoon at Mayflower Sec for Step-Up Prog and man like Sunday duty, everything was good initially as they were real obedient as compared to last week.

Wednesday went down to warehouse to help pack cupboard and what i heard was true. The warehouse is dusty and not many wanna go there. Think I sneezed like mad over there while trying to pack the cupboards. But there was a sense of achievement because we packed more stuff and created more space~ Ended up we brought a lot of stuff back to Suntec office. Haha.

anyway that's about all for now..

Fri section makan at Suntec! Think this is like the 1st section makan we have and man it's gonna be fun! and in the evening Wheel of Life Seminar! but gonna wear office wear... rawr... oh well.. haha..

Very often recently, I just start thinking, so what's the plan right now?

On one side I will take one step at a time but it's too risky and so not productive, on the other hand thinking of the plan ahead but because of uncertainties and difficulties, I'm pulling back. Now I'm just doing what's given to me and acting upon it.

Life's never the same with me progressing to the next phase and especially for this, so many factors to consider. Many had suggested looking for this and that job, or suggesting I should take a break first etc.

Guess everyday God uses opportunities to tackle with your inner character such that you progress from it and not fall back upon those weaknesses. Well thank God I'm going through that! Haha.

Anyway more to blog upon when i come back yeap! toodles!

i'm so tired!!!!

Went to work today after 3 days of disembarkation off and so many things to clear up plus ord clearance to do.. Ahh! next 2 weeks gonna be madness with me sacrificing some of my leave days to do clearance, and ship's not ard n the week i'm gonna ord..

Did a blood extraction this morning.. Man the wound still hurts.. I was quite shocked to find such a thick needle used for the syringe and when the whole process was about to end, the needle was exposed, half of it's end in my vein and the other half to the air. I could feel air gushing into my vein and man it was painful la. x_x Sorry I seem to be complaining because it was really shocking for me.

Morning was good, but somehow things went so wrong for the afternoon and it really seemed like devil attack. Argh... Stupid thing that spoilt my day and it wasn't that fruitful in the afternoon anymore and i just lost the spirit to do things. Think at that pt of time I just lost the connection to God so instantaneously. Gonna work on how to be watchful over myself when it comes to mistakes made and being sharp too. Well.. =)

Woo.. today was a fun day ard with many fantastic people.. yea!

Anyway began the day with waking p late (and missing the morning PM, missed the alarm totally), but had a decent rest still.. Finally in ages too that I managed to visit my grandma and know that she's doing fine and enjoyed her company. =) [she's the best grandma I can ever ask for!]
Went down to Suntec office, meet up with Vic and Sharlynn for another workshop at Blangah Rise Pri (thank God He preoccupied my 3 days of disembarkation off with such interesting things really though tiring..) went back to office again and continue with undone work from yesterday and thank God Adora and Candice came to help and all's done!! (realised while talking to Adora that she's quite similar to Dora in character.. thought i was seeing a mirror image lol).
lastly the best part was meeting up with Sing Yee and Karen for dinner. Thanks for the treat Karen! <-- know u r reading this. =D
Had dinner at Sushi Tei at Raffles and man the food was real good and of course the company was the best with all the lame jokes from Sing Yee and thanks to Karen for some sweet advice on you-know-what yea..

I'm very blessed today really, because of leaders over me like Vic and Karen who really watches over my life and being there for me.. Though both different but somehow feel that the anointing from the both are somewhat similar.. Not sure how to explain that. And one nice thing is both are involved in social work.. so perhaps it indicates something though indirectly? hha laming ard.. can't really see things in this manner..

but today was real fun! thanks for being part of my life! =)

Now am kind of wondering if volunteering and social work is the way for me.. If so then things really came in too sudden for me though funny..
Got involved in a Step-Up Prog for youths at-risk in a sec school (courtesy of Vic) and dora intro-ed a support prog fr this organization called MILK. Mainly dealing with youths but of different categories..
Had fellowship with Vic, Sharleen and Gerald and even Eden and it brought me back to the days when I started volunteering, back in school and after graduation in CHCSA. It's really interesting to step out to help others and seeing how others are blessed by your actions. And its really rewarding to see the smiles on their faces. Yeap. And along the way interaction with other volunteers and making new friends does help to widen your social circle too..

Yea! I'm back from my overseas deployment after 45 long days out. And it's definitely great to be back home at the comfort on my bed, lying down to use my dear lappy (like now). =)

Quite excited initially because no more major sailings and all I'm looking forward to is my ORD in 3 weeks. *winks* after that will be looking and setting the path for my future. (no more under nice shelter of being fed and look after..)

Got a few takeaways from this trip though.. First, nature!
Got to see the high valleys and mountains, volcanic eruption (yea...), whales + dolphins + sea turtles out at sea (most see them only in zoos, not the wild), sunrises and sunsets, sky brilliantly lit by thousands of stars and occasional meteors flying across the sky. Many breathtaking moments of these, I can ask for more really.

Second, bonding!
Because of the ship crew working together and out at sea, it's this group of ppl to depend on for each other's survival that we really bonded through difficult tasks and supporting each other at down times. Though sometimes things do get messed up but in the end, it's still the people that matters in the end. All the way Vigour! =)

Third, WoW!
The trip itself brought us out to ports of Surabaya, Darwin and Bali, so definitely different things to see and learnt. The culture, landmarks, the people...

Fourth, food!
The yum yum pizzas of Australia, hot from the oven and it's so shiok when it enters your mouth with the melting cheese and grand ingredients on top of it. (hungry? hahah). The long missed A & W found exclusively in Indon and man, it's cheap! Miss the root beer! (many of us were thinking why it pulled away from S'pore which is sad la). And the seafood makan by the seaside watching the sunset. Amazing experience!

Fifth, shopping!!!
How can you go overseas and not do any shopping right? Haha! Anyway I'm a guy that likes shopping though it sounds weird for a guy... Got good lobangs especially at Bali and those roadside stalls, manage to get discounts through bargains and it's amazing how much you can bargain for the stuff you want and the things are nice too! =)

Lastly, God!!! !!! !!!
This one cannot forget... He'd been the one blessing the seas without sea states( so no vomitting for me) and the works done, simply amazing! And dreams and visions all coming back to overflow you, during QT and His presence overflowing you. WHen all this combined, it's simply so loving and you don't want to let it go really... ANd He had been great reminding me of my dreams and in those times, He seem to tell me that those are achieveable, with Him. How great really, that God tells you that He's with you and it seems like the r/s is nothing but a genuine thing.
Well, kind of feel guilty coz didn't take the chance to evangelise (got discipleship fm Vic =S) and well.. things are still great no mater what!


Gotta go, toodles peeps! =)

hey guys.. if u r reading this, please pray for my grandma if you can. my grandma just had an operation on the leg 5 days ago and pray that nothing will happen to her and she'll be on her way to recovery. thanks guys.

It's a bright Sunday afternoon.. But it's like quite a moody Sunday..

Gonna set sail tmr afternoon and I won't be back till eve of national day and sailing off for Bali on National day itself. It;s like in total of 11 days of sailing but gonna be fun yet tiring? Will be involved with many nations participating in this exercise and it's an exposure heh.

Was attending a sports meet yesterday for the nations participating in this year's exercise. Witnessed many interesting things and one of them was how amazed was I when I saw how much the Japanese can eat at a BBQ. (Aussie style of BBQ is very much like buffet and there will be a chef cooking for ya, all you need to do is to take the already cooked food.) Their plates were filled with food a mountain high without seeing the surface of the plate? No joke but I thought I eat a lot, they eat more than me!

The weather here is pretty much the extreme for many Singaporeans. Like early in the morning the temp can be as low as 20 or 21 C but as hot as 27 or 28 C in the afternoon with the sun scorching hot! So the drastic temp changes can be quite bad to take on but skin got to be thick to 'tahan' haha!

Somehow beginning to fall in love with this place because of the many things I can't get in S'pore, I see them here.. Like seeing a whale on my way here, dolphins greeting you in the morning during sunrise, the nice sceneries around, the slow pace of life here and many other things! Most of all it's still the people around that's so friendly and all! Can't get enough of here really.

Anyway, it's the 4th week running for my overseas deployment. Still have about 24 days before gg back to s'pore.. Miss home, miss friends, miss the pals!

Looking forward to coming Bali R and R before home sweet home le..

I wonder how did the guys do for group duty, miss serving with the leaders!

Toodles everyone! =)

Solomon wishes to be changed, inside and outside.

What are the things to be changed and how can I change them?

It feels empty at times, without the connection with people.

Wanna do my best in all but mistakes just keep coming.

I want to CHANGE and be CHANGED!!

thinking of what to blog now.. have myself ended up in the same internet cafe again.

just saw benny's bday video done by the cg back at s'pore. while watching i suddenly felt the warm presence of God and it reminded me of how loving these wonderful guys are, how they were there for each other, teasing and making fun too. But end of the day, it's the genuine love for each other that really touches my heart.
COme to think of it, that's one reason why I stayed on in the cell group, the love for each other. Pretty happy to be in this team/family and pretty blessed too.

How people like John, Vic, Xue would be there for me, John being sarcastic in his remarks but yet with good intentions of getting you around from bad habits, Vic's constamt encouragement plus affirmations and Xue being the spiritual buddy for me then.
Ahh, guessing I'm missing home now.. Miss the team, miss my ushers, miss the leaders in grp 3, miss doing log with Karen and the rest!! =)

the 2 jokers! haha. At the night market.

that's me!!

big mouth... ooooo...

nice lights eh? but ex..

kane, des and dean. What's the watermelon for? guess!

Chinatown in Darwin. Nice sign eh?

Public transport in Darwin. Bus take ages to run and come..

Beautiful sunset part 1

Beautiful sunset part 2

Anyone missed this figure? The root beer rocks!

at a restuarant in Surabaya. Slacking as always. haha

The other group of slackers.. Oops!

Ulu streets of Surabaya. Chinatown aka 'Kya-Kya'

The most preferred cab, Blue bird! (charges are like 325rup every 300m?)

Full set of A & W. Man it tastes good...

hey hey i'm back again for some blogging...

just came back from night market.. Haha.. the night market here is pretty special. It's very much like a night bazaar with string of food stalls and streets of stalls selling handicraft etc. There are like hundreds of stalls and there's stuff to look around and makan. It's very much like our local 'pasaar malam' except that it's beside the beach. And it opens on Thursdays and Sundays. It's very much like the highlights of Darwin in the week.

A pretty good eye-opener really. Haha.. Didn't buy anything stuff there coz it's ex (haiz).

Anyway a continuation of the food from previous entry.. You can practically find all sorts of food here, from fast food to local food like pizzas to very asian food like curry to even very Singaporean 'ice kachang'!! Yummy..
The Mac's here doesn't have Fillet O'Fish or McChicken here as main meals but burgers like quarter pounder, double quarter pounder, triple cheese burgers after double cheese burgers. As mentioned, it's all beef associated and not much of others. One thing, the fast food here cost lesser than the other food here, and it's hard to find them around too.

I used to have the impression that the shops closes early because people here are very homely and all. Well, some are, and you would find other people hanging out in casinos, pubs, internet cafes or doing sports at night. And they don't work at home too. So work is strictly work, relaxation is total relaxation with no work involved.
The pace here is extremely slow as compared to Singapore and couldn't really get used to it initially. A good place for retirement in the future though.

Had been the casino here. Quite of boring here coz' by far I had only watched people playing the games, seeing how easy money was gained or lost on the tables. So far the worse I'd seen for one of my colleagues was 3K lost in 3 nights. Wonder what will the outcome be for him tonight. 3K is like a wow-figure to me. Sucky but oh wells..

Missing the people in Singapore and I just have this bad habit of looking at my watch, thinking what would I be doing if I were in Singapore at that point of time, like gg for UM duty etc etc etc... Miss the days..
Well back in Singapore will be things like Asia Conference and more to come like looking for a job, studies and really deciding for my future especially after this trip and ORD... More to come..

Well be uploading some pics that was taken during the trip now. tata!!

Hey guys i'm back again!

Haha.. Kinda miss coming online and yea.. Now in the 3rd week running for my overseas deployment. mine's like one of the longest around as usual deployments last for 3 weeks or 1 mth max. Well, next stop after Aussie Darwin, Bali, more shopping!!!

Gonna go on crazy shopping once there and man, many things to buy as heard from many people. So people, hang in there for the gifts ya? Like so many gifts to buy la, JL's, Vic's, CG's, UM's, Logs.. Wah.. Anyway the shopping here in Aussie is ex, prices almost the same lest the currency exchange. Ha. The food here on average per meal is AUG $ 10 bucks. Even the drinks are like AUD $2.50 on average. Gonna go back and save money liao, coz spending too much here/ By far have spend almost a hundred on food alone. Can u believe it? Even things in Indon aren't so ex..

If you intend to come over to Aussie to holiday, it's a great place to shop around but you definitely need the money. Food here can cost a bomb!! =S

Well, gonna go now.. =) Blogging while I can. Hehe..

Hi guys, currently at darwion right now. managed to find some time to blog. Haha.. things had been great in new places. people here friendly and eveerything.. can't wait to be home though..

Been missing home already though i'm making new friends here too. Anyway it's 4 more weeks to go before I'm at home and 7 weeks before ORD! Can't wait for many things to happen when I go back home.

Meanwhile over here for me there's more shore leave at Darwin, coming major multilateral exercise of 11 days (oh gosh!) before Bali (more shopping!!!!) and back home..

There are many things going on right now and I think I only have this week to do some blogging in a internet cafe (without internet is like dead life here) before the next time I blog is in Singapore.

Well, no pictures to show since I didn't bring any camera. Haha.. Hope everyone's doing well back in Singapore and till the next update, toodles!! =)

Hohoho... Sorry guys. Can't deliver the promise of updating whatever happened for the last month due to shortage of time. Think now what I could remember was outing was the guys to celebrate my b'day esp fm UM, Adrian's wedding (need to get photos fm Ray man) and yeap.

Anyway, i'll be gone in 8 hrs but I'll still be contactable. As long as there is land and reception you can drop me SMS (cheaper that way) or call if emergency. Otherwise can email me and I'll check once I have the oppurtunity to do so.

So as said, I'll update whenever I can and will be back on 18 Aug! Do pray for me k? =)

Adios and God bless! Will miss you guys! =S

Hey ya.. Wow.. it's been 4 weeks since I last updated. Haha.. got ppl start to complain le. Gonna be gg off in 18hrs and so gonna miss singapore!! Ahh sure be back later to update on the past mth.. =)

1 June was the start f the 21 Day Prayer and man.. It's really a stretch of faith really to pray for one hour and all.. And I'd also included fasting of 21 days for myself and wah.. the starting 2 days was like "Oh no!!" coz at times I would have forgotten and I just ended up eating! Ahh!

But thankfully I was able to fast for today though the temptation was great. Can you imagine the food for lunch was sphagetti with fried chicken wing! Ahh!! I consider this as an achievement really and had a revelation that I found it so hard to fast! But greater is He who's in me that I finally successully fasted for least one day!! haha..

Well, 3rd june, 18 more days to go for the 21 day prayer and yea!! Greater things to come with greater prayers. =) Praying for greater breakthroughs in the family and my life.. And thanks for all the prayers from the people out there! Things not going well but still have the faith I'm going to climb out of this valley, victorious and even more full of faith! =)

Shall be back on Fri from sailing in South China Sea.. Till then! =)

Ha.. Am here for a quick update..

It had been a great weekend and not to forget fun too! Yup.. Was in Expo in the morning, and so nice to see Alan around! Been ages since I last saw him, and surely missed him!! Haha. Chatted for a while before he left for JW with Karen and went down to AMK to settle some 'family business' but oh well.. After which met up with Lifang and Chris for lunch at AMK before proceeding back to Expo! Haha. Took bus 24, but just at Eunos under heavy rain, the bus broke down!! Been years since I last find an SBS broken down in the middle of the road. Anyway thank God the umbrella I had was big enough for 3 people and in the end I was late in meeting Nat and Jeremy before svc started. Ha..

Sat in for service and Pst Tan sure had a very good message for all of us! About building to last and in the area of servanthood.. Love it lots! Well, after svc went down to Logis to settle stuff for the shifting the next day before makan with cell. haha.. Diniesh treated me and felt so blessed! Haha.. LOL.. Anyway all of us went home less the more active ones going to double o. -.-

Come sun, 1st stage 1 duty for svc and starting out was ok but didn't really do well though it's only to take care of the 1st 3 rows. thank God for carrie and juan and yw to help out if not my neck really drops. Haha.Well after duty was the shifting of the hall! This time everyone was really efficient and we completed the entire shifting by 5pm. PTL!!! Haha..
Went down to Sembawang area for seafood feast and it was really nice with LPs to makan and not to forget me eating a lot of rice again!! =) Ate crabs, prawns and a lot of other seafood.. Haha. anyway went down to meet Huiming jie and sophie and sophie is so cute!! Falling in love with babies like Solomon and Sophie really!! haha..

Sorry a bit of short cut here... Haha.. somehow a bit lazy to blog.. lol. shall blog another entry soon.. =)

Hey.. Just came back from dinner at Sketches with some of my Navy pals.. haha.. Attendance turned up pretty well coz' I was expecting about 8 ook vyt ebded yo 13 came! Haha..

Anyway had started the day with waking up at 10am today and it's really a blessing to be doing so. Hadn't been doing that in months or even a year? Haha... So just took my time to prepare myself for PM and yeap... Talked to Eugene and Karen today... Thanks for the talk and it really made me felt a lot better with the concerns you guys have for me. =) Well, I'm with left with having to talk to Yew Weng now. Shall call him during the week though..

Did Stage 1 and generally it was alright and I love how Pst Ming had conducted the PM. Different from yesterday's coz' it's more of a personal touch from God today rather than the usual PM of intensifying praying. God's presence was so tangible especially at the front but I really have to be more sensitive to Him. And more responsive too.

So after PM went to hang out with Tze Hwa, Nicole, Michelle, Chang Yan and Jeremy for LATE lunch at Bedok when Sophia joined us. Ha.. Good fellowship in any case and anyway, kind of lazy to type what happened after.

But today was really a day of enjoyment, hanging out with frenz and doing things my way.. yeap. Tomorrow shall be a brand new day and wednesday I'm gone to the Malacca Straits and will be back n Friday! Haha =)

I'm going to Australia in 6 weeks!!

But I'm also away for 6 weeks from 4th July to 18th August. (tentatively)

Gonna miss everything here...

It's Friday!! Last weekday of the week and finally I get to join my CG for sat service after 4 weeks of not joining them! Must had missed out so much fun not being there for that period of time. Pray things will go on well and yea..

Somehow, because of the recent incidents, I began to really slow down, take a step back, look at things around and learn to evaluate upon myself in what I do now.. Least I wasn't like last time when I would just hit on things to do, being so involved in ministry or things I like without thinking or prioritising.

There are times when I did consider taking a break from ministry, close frenz from cg and CGLs asking me to do so. They had seen how involved I was for the ministry, how much time can be sacrificed and forsaking/losing other things that's more important to me as a result. And gradually because of the commitment, begin to see myself falling apart spiritually and physically. I began to lose sight of God and all I saw was being wanting to serve, serve and serve. Though there were other aims like wanting to impact people, being a good usher, striving to be excellent in my work, they were not God-based anymore. It was all for my own benefits without God in the picture.

Don't get me wrong. Being committed to something is good. But being over committed degrades a person, after all there's a certain limit one can go through. And it drags you away from your goals, drifting you away from God, without you realising it until something bad hits you.

Anyone that knows me, knows that I love to serve, loves to usher. And it's a form of sacrifice in your service to others because it brings you out of the comfort zone of self into serving others. And this form of sacrifice is good because it humbles you and stretches your capacity and productivity. But this sacrifice will turn stale or if not stagnant because you no longer find yourself effective, and you start to be arrogant and often throw your weight around. Funny to say but it's true.

Anyway, I got to learn when to take a break, when to move on. Even machineries need to 'rest' to maximise their lifespans and performances. Haha... How true really. If not I'm going to end up like the water in the cup being stagnant because I had reached the maximum. I have to move on to a cup with larger capacity so that I can be filled even more!

Wow, what a revelation really. =) Thanks God. Hehe...

KISS > Keep It Simple Stupid

If what we say is complicated and complex we are foolish.

Great leaders speak in clear, simple, easily understood terms.

Everybody following understands exactly what is required.

The signal is clear about where we are going and where we are not.

Great leaders master the art of communication.

Successful communication is not in how much is said, but rather in the clarity. Did the listeners get it?

If they 'got it', at what level were they inspired to act?

Our people get courage from clear communication.

They get ready for war.

Say it as simply as you possibly can.

Yesh finally I get to blog! Just now my connection just refused to get me connected to Dashboard!! Rawr...

Anyway today's a good day! Haha.. Busy at work and glad that relationship with my colleagues got one level higher! Work was fruitful but still had mistakes and got faulted. Those small, little mistakes that could have avoided... Oh well, tomorrow's sailing so I pray I'll be able to perform up to expectation and not make any other silly mistakes which I had made in the past. Have to improve, improve and improve!!!! =D

Took me quite a lot of faith to talk to my mum and younger bro just now.. Bro's getting a bit out of hand staying out late in the evening to play games, skipping his CCA etc. Mum's worried with my bro's disobedience to her, dad's attitude towards her and the family and getting a job.. I didn't know I could be so calm when it comes to dealing with these issues really.
When I used to shout at my bro for being naughty, I actually could sit down and talk to him and accommodating him and yet not restricting his freedom too much. Hope he sticks to what he promises me to.
Well for mum, let's just say I used to run away from family problems but it's different today...

Glad that Holy Spirit was around and realised the importance of being home and being there for the family. God can be so timely in the things but I'm really praying for a breakthrough. Now it's only the start. Now I'm just concerned about my mum getting a job first coz' she's really getting uptight with it.
Yup glad to see the light at the end of the valley and I'm walking towards that light! Jiayou!!

brand new monday... long weekend for most of us here because of vesak day holiday! Haha. One of the more fulfilling days I had today..

Booked out from camp, went home and did laundry on my jackets and bag.. Man.. Now then i do realise how DIRTY they can be because the water turned black after soaking for just 30mins. can imagine how things will be when you soak them for say, an hour or more? Think it'll come out as black as black bean soup! lol.. *gross I know haha*

Was running late to meet up with Chris for connect group outing at Safra Yishun.. Bowling!!! Well, thank God we weren't late and after meeting up with the rest, all went on to B2 foodcourt at Northpoint to eat.. (Most didnt had lunch, as usual... ) Almost broke my record of rice intake.. Took in 4 BOWLS of rice! Haha.. Was really hungry then and everyone in the table as usual was like shock with the 4 bowls of rice.. (they only expected me to eat like 3 bowls only.. Haha)..

Anyway at SAFRA Yishun.. played about 2 games and for the 1st time.. I just hit the bowls into the drains without fail... either i hit too hard or i had poor control over where I would throw the ball to. (i only know how to hit straight balls..)
It was fun overall and again with Lifang having the highest score among all! Haha..

So it was... After deciding where to go after bowling, we ended up at Bishan and watched Accuracy of Death.. nice and meaningful movie and I reallly loved it.. Dun mind watching it again! =) And today glad that the relationships between all of us got stronger especially with lin si and dz coz' they really opened up and seeing more of such ahead! Haha. Too bad Yi Wei and Geraldine ain't around today..

It came onto my mind today, of how do you keep everyone in the conversation or involved in the things especially in group outings like today? Although there are bound to be people being let out, how do we bring that down to the minimum? I can be there to talk, getting them involved but ultimately, I can't do it alone... But one thing I like about HS is that He will always be around to make sure gaps are filled and in the end, everyone takes home something and will always look forward to such events again. =)

Hmm, mum's still looking for a job, dad's still away from home. BF still got 1 last lap to fulfill. And I'll be away in less than 2 months.

Life still goes on with me picking up the tempo now.

Had been so distant from God and suddenly all the sensitivity towards Him had been lost. But thank God least now I'm on my way to recover what I had lost. Painful way to start all over again especially to what had happened. Learnt my lesson hard, so got to take things more seriously now. If I used to be slack, I need to know why and begin to change. Guess I gave myself too much leeway in taking too many things for granted.

Well, least I'm on the positive end now. At the same time I'm really awaiting for a miracle to happen to improve things for the better. I know things are possible and God has been so evident in my life..

Something that I came up with on letter representations of what I can improve on and i put them on my MSN:
Accountable,
Bold,
Concentration,
Details,
Excellence,
Faithfulness,
Guard,
Hospitable,
Inspiring,
Junius, that's me! =)